How I Live Now { Perrciado }

.Tony Perry.

I shut the door after Jaime walks out and I then lean against it like a white girl in one of those rom com movies.

I hear laughing and I look around the corner and spot Mike and Kellin watching.

" Where you guys watching this whole time?"

They nod

Mike starts making kissy faces and I shove him

"Buttholes"

Kellin laughs

" You like the guy their is no shame in that except the fact that you no nothing about him"

" He could be a booty rapist.." Mike says idiocally
" Not if I like it .."
They stare
We start laughing
"Seriously Tone you need to talk to him if you like him" Kellin says giving me a serious face
I sigh in fustraion.
" I know that if I were to talk to him their would be a major connection but I can't even make one sylobol to him" I frown and flop down onto the couch and scream into a pillow
" ahhhhh...."
- Ring -
"All you need is practice brotha" Mike says
"Yeah I guess.."
I pull out my phone to read a text.

(805)746-2365 : Its like theirs cancer in my blood .. - solve the rest ???

I wonder who this is. Only one way to find out.

Tony: its like theirs water in my lungs and I cant take another step . The Amity Affliction . Haha who is this may I asskkkk ?

"Who you texting?" Kellin asked
"Nobody"
"Liar"
Kellin gasps.
" lieing is a sin, You'll pay"
I glare at him
" Your stuiped "
He laughs
" I gotta head home"
" same its getting late" mike agreed
They both head toward the door
"Bye dickwads" I say laughing
" bye bye lover boy " both say on que and out the door they went with the door slamming shut behind them.
I hate being alone. Being alone means being alone and vulnerable to your thoughts. My thoughts are were my demons lie.
I sigh
- Ring -
I pick up my phone.

Jaime: Its Jaime haha. I just learned something about you..

I smile at the thought of Jaime.

Tony: What is that ? ..

Jaime : That we like the same music..

Thats something very important to me lol

Tony: same haha

I smile at the screen of my phone.

Tony: by the way haha it was nice of you to come by and say thanks.. but im not a hero.. haha..

I get up from the couch and run upstairs to my room. I quickly change into some shorts and lay in bed.

- Ring -

Jaime: Stop . If it weren't for you I would be in a hospital..

well I should get to bed.. school and all..

Tony: Yeah

I stare at the ceiling wondering what life would be like if I was never born... Random and depressing thought but I wonder.

- Ring -

I look over at my phone and contemplate whether to read Jaime's message or not. I decide not to and look back to the ceiling.
"Shit"..
I get up from bed and over to my bathroom and open up my cabinet.
First, my 3oo mg antidepressant.
I swallow.
Second, my 10 mg mood stablizer.
I swallow.
Finally, my 3 mg sleeping pill.
Swallow.
I look over all my pill bottles and sigh. These pills may help take away my sadness but they don't replace it with happiness.
I sigh.
I shut the cabinet to find the reflection of my sister Hannah.
She gives me a small smile as she leans against the door frame.
" you okay Tony ?"
I look at her eyes And know she's asking because she doesn't want to loose me. I'm the only family she has left.
I turn around and smile at her.
"Alright"
I laugh a little .
" just don't know if I can take pills to be stable for all my life.."
I look at her face as I give her my honest thought and her face seems as if she feels sorry for me
" I love you.,"
She hugs me.
I hug her back.
"Me too sis"
She let's go and walks out my room.
I sigh and turn of my bathroom light and lay back in bed. I stare at ceiling once again.
A tear rolls down my cheek.
" But is love enough to keep me going..."
Soon I fall into a deep sleep...
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"Don't you get it .... I don't love you.... Your hideous and annoying ad pathetic." The mysterious figure said
" Your not my best friend your a joke, a mistake , a waste of space, do me and everybody a favor and kill yourself.." Kellin yelled
" wh-what.. Kell.. Its me... " I cried out
"Its me..."
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I woke up breathing heavily and sweating.
It was just a dream. Just a dream. I sigh and get up. I head to the bathroom and splash water on my face.
I head to my closet and look over my shirts. I go past an amity shirt and I think of Jaime.
The shirt has the bands name with a skull and a moon that is the shape of the bannana .
I smile.
I grab it with some black jeans and put it on.
" Breakfast" Hannah Yells From Downstairs.
"Coming" I Yell Back
I search for my black and white vans but cant find them.
"Crap.." I sigh and just put on my black converse.

I grab a hat , my backpack, and my phone from its charger and put it in my pocket.
I run downstairs and see Hannah with cereal.
I laugh.
"Are you serious?" I raise an eyebrow
She sighs
" I gotta get to work early today sorry. Love you" she gras her bag, kisses my cheek and out the door she was.
I sigh and grab an apple. I take a bite.
- riiinggggg rinnnngg -
I pull out my phone to see kellins caller ID. I answer

" Yellow?"
I take another bite of my apple
" hey tonebone I'm outside, hurry, we gonna meet Mike and his homes"
He then clicks before I could response.
I throw my apple away.
I head for the door and out I was.
I run out to a smiling Kellin.
" why so smiley?" I ask laughing
We start walking.
" Jenna one of his homes"
" Jenna as the one you've liked since like kindergarten Jenna "
"yup"
"Oh my god man that's awesome"
" I'm trying not to panic or I'll say something stuiped in front of her"
I laugh.
We reach the liquor light and press the button. I look I'm the direction that jaime comes from and I surprisingly see him very close.
I quickly look away. Wait..
I look again and oh my god.
Were wearing the same amity shirt,
I look to the ground and smile.
He looks cuter in it then I do though. I soon feel his presence behind me. Kellin nudges me. I look at him and he gives me a look. I sigh. I turn around and tap this shoulder since he was looking down.
He looks up at me and he smiles. He pulls out his ear buds
" Hey Tony. What's up"
Speak tony speak.
Agh. Imaginary face slap.
He laughs.
"Its ok. Hey were twins today." He grins
I grin back
The white guy comes on and Kellin walks on without me
I look at Jaime.
"Wanna walk together?"
I smile and nod.
I turn and we start to walk side by side.
" So Tony.. Um.. About my text last night I didn't mean to make you feel weird I just wasn't thinking .."
What.. What text is he talking about.
I pull out my phone and see I have one unread message from him.
I read it.

Jaime: Goodnight Cutie.

I smile.

Tony: it doesn't make me feel weird. I barely saw it right now but it made me feel well.. Cute.

Jaime reads what I sent him. Smiles at me.

"Good" he laughs

Tony: honestly, I'm gay.

He reads it.
He doesnt say anything.
"Funny, I'm gay too."
Oh my god. Love story in the makes. Nah probably not.
He laughs

We werent far behind Kellin and soon he stopped and we stopped.
"I think this is Mikes street " he said to me
"Tall tattoed mike?" Jaime asked
I nodded
"Yes this is it" he said
"Sick now we wait" Kellin sat at the curb of the street.
Jaime looked at me.
I felt my face start to warm up.
"So tutor, when you gonna start tutoring me" he said with a hint of flirtness in his voice.
I smiled.

Tony: My house after school. Walk together?

He reads it and nods.
He looks over at kellin and sees him facing another direction and turns back. He steps toward and leans up and kisses my cheek.
"Can't wait" he smiles
Oh my god. I swear my cheek is on fire from his touch.
This is going to be a good day.
I hope...

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OK I really like this chapter. I felt like their was more emotion. Let me know what you think ? :)
Xoxo'