How I Live Now { Perrciado }

Tony Perry

I couldn't believe my eyes. He has lost his mind. What the hell does he think he is doing for Christ sakes. He really needs help. Like serious professional help. I cant help him. I really can not. What he is facing is something more powerful then the help and comfort I could give. He started looking down. As if he was battling something inside. Thoughts..? Voices..? Who knows.

"Jaime..please put the gun down" I tried pleading with him. 

He shook his head. "Don't leave me. I need you Tony"

I couldn't help, but let the tears stream down my face. Someone I love has gone off the deep end. Yes, love. I know what I just told him but how can I not. Was I to blame? I blamed him for everything that happened. He might've messed up in the past, but he did not put the gun in Gabe's hand nor the though of shooting up innocent people. I know he is not at fault. 

He begins to cry and shake his head.

"She shouldn't have died.." he turns looking over at Jenna's dirt filled grave. "She was so good.."

I look over and Vic quickly picks up his phone, dialing 911. He quickly speaks "He has a gun. Please hel-" and like that Vic was on the ground. Blood oozing out from his stomach.

"Vic!" screamed Mike. He tried heading over to him, but Jaime secured him by aiming the gun at him.

I could not believe what is happening. I could hear sirens in the distant. But it brought no comfort.

"Jaime why are you doing t-"

"SHUT UP" he yelled causing me to flinch and shut my eyes air tight, but he kept talking. Not to either both of us, but to someone else? Their were no one else around besides Mike and I.

 Why did I stop. Should've kept walking to the car. Gone home with the brothers and just morn Jenna. 

Instead, I stopped and let emotions rule over me. Now Vic is on the verge of death and Mike or I might be next. All because I had to tutor the new boy.

"I love you.."

I didn't know what to say, but I knew what had to be done. I raised my hands and I opened my eyes. I slowly started walking towards him.

"I love you to.. babe"

He smiled. But tears still run over his lips as they continue to fall.

"I never told you this but I had a dream about us. The night after the concert, We had a house. Together. With a big yard and a pool. We also has 2 cats. God and Satan. " he chuckled at the names.

"But most important we had 3 kids. Two boys and one girl. Jason, Caleb and Sierra Preciado-Perry." He gave me a smile.

I continued slowly getting closer.

"We looked so happy" and I was in front of his face. 

"We will be.."

The sirens are closer.

"Can I hug you?"

He nodded frantically. He removed aim from Mike who then quickly rushed over to aid to Vic.

I pulled Jaime close and wrapped him up in my arms. His stance loosened as he begin to cry into my shoulder and his hand that held gun was right as his side. I slowly reached for it.

"I love you baby boy. I'm sorry.."

"Huh?" he questioned.

And I quickly removed the gun from him as the cops quickly drove into the cemetery. His look held pain and betrayal. I continued to cry. Cops rushed over and I handed the gun to one. I rushed over to the brothers as paramedics started helping Vic. I pulled Mike away and I pulled him close. We cried and comforted each other. I then pulled away to the sight of Jaime being put into the back of a cop car. He looked at me as he got in and I couldn't help, but feel sorry.