Surviving

Where Do I Belong

The sun rises as is now 6:30 I got about 2 hours more of rest after I fixed myself up. I get up and yawn heading to the bathroom looking in the mirror seeing my right side of my face has a purple hand print on it my eye is swollen and my nose is puffed up. I sigh. Getting dressed I put on my Kutt and had downstairs for breakfast hoping to be the only one awake. Hading to the kitchen I stop seeing Kelly an old lady of a MC man named Bear he's the scarest. Man I've ever see he doest talk but to his old lady and he keeps to himself with his anger problems he's a good MC member thought done a lot for the Reeds. Kelly turns and gasps dropping the pans she had to make breakfast " C Colt your face" I shrug and head to the fridge " hunny who did this to you" " doesn't mater Kelly pleas drop it" she thinks a minute " dose the prez know" I shake my head no " hunny you need medical attention" " no drop it" she sighs rubbing her pregnant belly " you should be resting Kelly they little bikers do anytime now" she smiles at me then wobbles on her feet I rush over and help her stay standing " I'm going to help you get to a chair" she nods " pleas go get Bear he's in the outdoor gym" I nod and run off out the kitchen door to the outdoor gym seeing Bear beating up a punching bag " Bear" he turns twords me and growls " Kelly needs you in the kitchen" he nods and follows me into the kitchen where Kelly sits " Kelly I told you to let some other old lady fix breakfast your 9 months pregnant lady" she slaps his shoulder " oh hush you big buffoon I'm fine I jus need rest" he nods picking her up and caries her up stairs to there room. I go back to fridge and grab a juice box and apple about to go back to my room when bear walks in looking pissed " who hit you Colt" " Noone" " I don't belive you for a minute there's a hand print on your face and Kelly's right you wouldn't be able to leave the property by yourself so a member of this club made that mark on your face Prez will have there hide you know" I sigh " well there's no cameras in the main Clubhouse and I'm not saying a word so mind your bissness Bear" he growls I back up protecting my face" he sighs " I won't hurt you Colt " tears go down my face " onec trust is broken it can't be repaired" I run past him and had twords my room whe I run into Hawk " shit sorry hunny, what the fuck" he grabs my chin and makes me look at him I can see the steam come form his ears " who the fuck did this Colt" I dont say a thing he growls and I jump back protecting my face again " shit sorry hunny I won't hurt you" I keep my head down everyone says that but it's never ture I walk past him to my room. Shutting and locking the door I cry into Hexs fur.

After an hour I wipe my tears as my stomach growls washing my tears away the best I can with a busted face. " i miss you dad I'm sorry I messed everything up again I think I think I should leave" I talk to my dad
Walking downstairs with Hex and Killer " Guard ok boys guard" I enter the dining room and gasps go around the room " Fuck Colt" Dakota says " who the hell put there hands on you" Parker yells " Colt are you ok "Boomer asks " I'm fine Boomer" he looks at me puzzled " you need to tell me who the fuck pit here hands on your Colt" " I'm sorry prez I won't" I sit at my seat and get some food " Colt what's going on" Parker says " nothing Cowboy" I call him by his MC name " Colt" Dakota says puzzled " pleas can we just eat Nomad" I also say his MC name Hawk growls and everyone starts to eat I look up and see Dallas and he's pissed. I sigh " BANG " Dallas throws his fork down " DAMIT COLT WHO THE HELL HURT YOU" I look at him with no emotion " that's it Colt Noone eats till you tell us who hit you" Dallas yells I look at him " you realy want to fucking know" he gives me the du look " fine you hit me Dallas you happy now" the room growls and Dallas looks heart broken " what what do you mean Colt " Dallas asks " I was in the main room at 3am last night from a night mare you came in drunk blamed me for Lorenzo dying for taking your litter brother and then you hit me knocking me off my bar stool" he look like he's going to throw up he runs out of the room to the kitchen and wehear him throwing up. I sigh " Colt where Hex and Killer with you" Parker asks " yes" Dallas walks back in " how come I'm not dog meat they would kill anyone who hurt you" " called them off and Hex helped me upstairs after I told you I Colt Duvare hate you Dallas Reed" he looks hurt " you should have let the dogs kill me" he says walking out of the room " your sacred of every man now as your own family hurt you. That's why you ran away form me this moring" bear says " Hawk I want to live if the Duvares" the room gose still Hawk looks at me " i don't feel safe here anymore" he sighs " are you sure hunny we coul move you out of the Clubhouse away from everyone till your no longer scared" I sigh " Dallas was right I don't belong here in I don't belong in this family" I say running up to my room