Because I Love You | jenlisa (ON HOLD)

Chapter 4

JENNIE

I ran my thumb over the small box and smiled slightly. Just the thought of her caused a storm in my stomach. I saw her for the first time a week ago and since that day I've always thought about her. In the morning and at night. Only her brown eyes ran through my thoughts and helped me get through the day.

Many will not understand my feelings. She may even not understand it. Maybe I've only known her for a week but I don't give a damn.

I want her for myself. I just want to see her by my side. And that forever.

It's clear that my life is fucked up. I'm just as fucked up. But I know she can free me from my own hell and I will do anything, absolutely anything, to make her feel what I feel for her at some point. No matter how long it takes.

"Boss?" One of my men suddenly asked, breaking me out of my thoughts. I slowly looked away from the box and then looked at her house. 

She lived in a cute family home, in a quiet and safe area. I assume that she had a good childhood and didn't have to suffer much which was quite reassuring to me. I know how bad it is to experience things in childhood that a child should never experience. I'm just glad that she has a normal life.

But once she's mine, I'll put the whole world at her feet. She will never have to sleep in a small room, make her own food or ride the bus again. I'll make her feel like a queen. Because that's exactly what she deserves.

"Put the box on her bed and don't get caught." I ordered one of my men and handed him the small box. He then nodded in agreement, took the box from me and then hurried across the street to her house.

"Shall we drive off, boss?" One of the other men asked, looking at me questioningly. As I slowly leaned against the car and crossed my hands in front of my chest, I shook my head slightly.

"I want to see her reaction." I said, whereupon he nodded in understanding and then joined the other men to the side. Actually, it really bothers me that I always have to have so many men at my side stand up for my protection. I have to live with it, no matter how much it fucks me up. But in return they always do my dirty work.

"Done, boss." The boy said, out of breath, after a while, who I had ordered to put the box down.

"Good." I said briefly, whereupon he nodded briefly and stood back.

Now it's just a matter of waiting.

I hope that she will be happy about my little gift. Of course, that's nothing like what she'll expect once she's really mine. But it shouldn't be difficult to convince Lalisa of me. After all, I know that I look good and am rich too. That really can't be the reason if she dumps me. Above all, I also know that she also finds me attractive. I have been working with a wide variety of people for many years and have met a lot of women in my life. And I know how people feel and what they think in my presence. I just don't miss anything anymore.

But what worries me isn't that she doesn't want me. Rather, whether she stays with me too, or whether she accepts me and my job as they are. And the most important thing: Whether she can deal with my dark and bad sides.

I'm not a good person. I know that. Everyone knows that.

Even though I would want to better myself for her, I couldn't. I can't defeat my other side. If so, I can only hide it for a while. But at some point it will come out and destroy everything nearby. I worry about whether Lalisa is even strong enough to handle this.

When the light of her room was turned on. I immediately looked up and had to smile slightly. It was dark outside and she had no curtains on her window which gave me a perfect view. Although this was particularly beneficial for me to see her reaction, I really have to get her to hang curtains on it at some point. I don't want other strangers to be able to watch her like that.