Poems for the silenced

Green

you told me your favourite colour was green.

so I associated you with green

I loved hearing the green trees rustling

I smelled the fresh scent of green tea

I relished in my garden with green

I wore green dresses

so you would like it

I painted my walls green

in hopes that you would notice it

I bought emerald rings

for us to wear

I made everything green

so i could notice you 

even on my jeans

but then you were gone

like a leaf blown in the wind

and the colour I once saw as hope

turned into a frivolous rage of envy

i threw away all the green

I repainted my walls white

the emerald rings were left unused

just like how u left me bruised

now i pluck and destroy all the leaves

for its colour strikes me with grief

why did you say your favourite colour was green?

now i can only stare at our pictures on a screen

i am afraid to go out now

for i will see too much of that colour

i avoid all my dresses

and i forget to water my garden

so the green leaves start to shrivel

and turn a dark shade of brown

what used to be full of green

turned into a dark shade of melancholy

I wish you never told me

that your favourite colour was green

now that colour

is my worst enemy

i feel hopeless, dry

tears running down my eyes

i hold onto my last green dress

as i held it tight with distress

I hate green

not because it looks like envy

not because the shade is ugly

but because it reminds me of you

the colour green.