Stranger In Past,Lover In Dream

CHAPTER 6 - CHRISTMA

             The train travels like a snake through the bush, but I can't see any tunnels often this time and I don't have Ananya either. So I tried hard to recollect past memories. But I couldn't find any. Once I met a lyricist and he shared with me an incident of his life,
the story of him meeting his wife. He said that they both met in the Eiffel tower and a year later they got married in the Eiffel tower. Then we composed 'We in paris' immediately after hearing this story. Still one of my favourite compositions by me.

But I don't aspire to meet Zephy in the eiffel tower or in Taj Mahal. I just want to meet her. Is it that big of a dream for a guy? Why do I get all the better things that I don't want in life but do not even get one small thing that I wish for? Maybe--that's for every human out there. We have to survive with what we are given or gifted. But not this time, I can't do that in this story. This story needs to end by my wish. If fate doesn't allow me to reach there, then it's time to rage a war against fate-war for you Zephy...

YESS!!!!

I just remembered something, there's a game which is played during Christmas season. 'CHRISTMA AND CHRIST CHILD' , the game is simple...we will get a person as our Christ child and we have to keep it as a secret until the day of Christmas. And give them a gift on Christmas eve.
And my christ child was Zephy, I wrote her secret letters for many days until Christmas. At that time I really wished that I could've got Ancy but instead I got Zephy. I peeked Zephy's expressions when she was reading the letters and she would search for the person who is sending her those letters. But I succeeded in hiding my identity until the Christmas eve.

The day before Christmas, I went to get a gift for her. And the gift I bought was, a watch with a 'Z' as it's wallpaper. Yes, that's exactly the Z from my dream---the exact same font!

Everyone started sharing their gifts to their christchild. Zephy was still waiting to get her's. Then I went to her and excitedly whispered, "Hey Zephy, it's me"

And I revealed her the gift, her eyes bloomed in joy and became so large with tears filled in it...She looked at the watch and looked at me.

She came towards me and suddenly grabbed me, surrounded her arms around me and then I slowly realised that she's hugging me so tight.

"Thank you ash", whispered Zephy.

"Yeah,welcome!"

Then we both smiled at each other.

Damn! I should've proposed to her that day, anyways I wasn't in love with her at that time. But then I started to wonder who's going to give me the gift?

"Hey ash, I'm your Christma!" , said Zephy.

This is a really rare occurrence where two people get to give each other gifts in this game. And now I'm here, she gave me the present and she told me to open it once I reach back to home.
But that night, I don't really remember opening that present. It was out there in my shelf, dusted and it could've even went to garbage without anyone ever opening it.

The present's life feel so dry and sad because of me. I hate myself now. This train feels so dark to me even though there is so much light, same like my decisions in life. I had every opportunity that a man can ever get but still I refused to use any of them at the right time and now here I am, crying and roaming to find a girl. I feel like,

"There's another mind deep in me
Don't know what's gotten into me
I ain't seen the other side plentifully
'Til the end I'll, 'til the end I'll fight"

These are some lines by Dwayne also known as XXXtentacion. I met him in March of 2018. He said he loves my first few singles and the depth in it. So I flew to America to meet him and I also wanted to appreciate his latest album '?' .

The day we met an important thing he told me was, "humans can't lose, they can only decide to not win".

But I miss his music... I never really know that his latest album might be his last but, rest in peace my dear Dwayne. A collab with you is one of the few things on my bucket list that is never going to be crossed out. So, all I want is to keep going as long as this goes.

My mind is just throwing thoughts, memories, random fragments of the past all around. I feel so much noise in my mind that is just trying to do nothing but stop me from getting a sleep.

Then as I slowly closed my eyes and tried to sleep....

DANGGGGG!!!!!

Something hit the back of my head, I can feel the blood flowing out...I--I feel an immense amount of pain entering my body,Every passenger around me is tilted.
They all have a fear of death in their faces. Every single voi--Voice inside my head became quiet. I am in a state of unconsciousness , my vision is slo--slowly fading out and everything in front of me is blurred.

I keep hearing huge sounds and explosions around me---I am covered up in smoke, I can hear someone--Someone dear to me crying...A slow vibration wave that's passing through all our bodies. An iron knife came out of the luggage and pierced through a passenger's left ear.
He was dead, Wha-What is truly happening right now to my body? Then all of a sudden! Everything came apart so fast. Half of the people in my compartment were dead. Some were injured and some were safe... I don't know about myself... And I slowly realised that...

"My train crashed!"

*Wait for chapter 7*