letters in the box

for when nobody listens

It's Friday night, and a it's been a stressful week. And all you want to do is share your crazy experiences,  your devastating thoughts, or ANYTHING that you conquered over the week.
But, you look around, and there's no one in sight.

Maybe it's Monday, or Sunday night, and you're dreading the week ahead. You're nervous for a date, or scared for a test, or for anything in your future that you consider and obstacle or causes nervous anxiety. And there's no one to talk to. (I'm always here, by the way)

You've got that scared, 'what if' feeling, and as you scroll through your contact list, you find no one to vent to. Everyone is posting about the party they're at, or ranting on and on about their boyfriend, and you can't get one word in. No one is there. Not any friends, or classmates.

You're left stressed, and especially lonely, ever been there? I have, and I think everyone has. I'm a good listener, and when I need someone to listen to me, everyone turns their heads and looks the other way. Trust me, I've been there, and it sucks; big time.

Why am I less important? Why are my struggles put on the bottom topic?

It's frustrating, and it hurts, I know how you feel.

Speak up. Confide in your friends, if they're true and genuine, they'll shut up and listen, giving more personal advice than I can give, and they'll help you out. Just get a hug, or escape for a moment and let them distract you.
If you're like me, and you friends are there one second and gone the next, talk to a family member.

My Mama, she's special, and she's just like all the other Mama's out there. She doesn't really understand, but she listens. She's there for me, and she helps whenever she can. She wasn't always like this, I kind of had to confide in here for her to realize: I need to step up, my daughter needs me.
Maybe it's your dad, he's the hero, and he's the strong guy that helps you when you need it. Dad's are always good for that.
Family should be there for you, no matter what. And if they're not, make a family out of other people. They don't need to be blood to be loyal and helpful, or caring and loving. Know this.

There's no one that's there more than yourself. To be quite honest, I know this sounds lame, but when I was lonely and had no one to talk to, I would write to myself. I would talk to myself. and I would listen. I was my own best friend. It made me strong, and made me accept myself.
I'll admit, it drove me a little insane, and I cried myself to sleep most nights.
But, you become your own person. You know yourself, your limits, your boundaries, and it's hard to ask that of people. To listen and to accept yourself.

Keep a journal, and write everything down. Buy colorful pens or markers, keep it sweet and simple, but detailed.
Read it back later, and learn from the experience or just rip it up. This only works sometimes, but it does work. I realize some moments weren't such a big deal, but at the time, it mattered to me. And I understood, which most people wouldn't of. They wouldn't of cared or wanted to listen.

I just want to tell you that when no one is there, and no one listens, you're here.

(But screw all those people that aren't, because you matter, and they should know that)

Suicide Prevention line for in the United States:
+1 (800) 273-8255

I have never used this line, but I have researched it (for anyone who truly needs a listening ear).  It's open 24/7, 24 hours in a day, and 7 days a week. It's verbal therapy for whenever, and they're only there to help. I've read that they don't tell you "It's okay, don't do it", they try to talk you through your issues and help make them less stressful and almost de-sadden you (or is it un-sadden, I'm not sure).