His light in Darkness

Chapter nine

          
                   ~Verena's pov~
     What are you doing here I said to the drunk figure standing in front of my door, I got no response from him then he was loosing his balance until I hurriedly went to catch his head was on my laps. I kept on asking myself the one question I never saw myself asking why did I care about him someone who would enjoy seeing me in pain, I still couldn't give an answer to that question.
   I managed to put him on my bed, I wanted to go get him some pills that is if he would have a hangover I stood then his hand held my hand not too tight like as if he was afraid he could break it,then he said please don't go, it's too dark can you continue to be my light in my darkness, I looked for the same eyes of the man I saw who loved killing but I couldn't find him all I could see was a man needed me and called his light.
  Feeling moved by his words I sat down back and got comfy only for him to put his hands around my waist I didn't resist because he sent heat down my spine and it was incredible, I was craving to put my hand in his hair I couldn't hold it any longer and I did he made a sound that made me smile I could see myself being in the same position.
    He looked so peaceful sleeping,he was done fighting his demons, I had never seen this soft part of him, I loved it so much, If I had met him like this I would have gladly gone to his hands, I slowly took off his shirt only to be shocked by seeing scars and I wondered how could a person have these scars does that mean on every mission he goes he comes back with these.
I stroked my fingers on his back soothingly and memorized every inch of his body.
    Was I slowly falling for the monster who I am to be wedded to ? I couldn't answer because deep down I felt something but it wasn't love neither was it hatred it was something I was sure I could live with, I cared for him no way I have ever cared for anyone before.
I decided to sleep and hope this moment lasts forever, because nothing good about me lasts forever I said then slowly started dozing off.