Thursday

THIS IS NOT FAIR

Oh how unwell we feel when this sensation comes.
I am not electrical as i once was.
My love is here but that's all you see.
The person me is not to be taken lightly.
I need attention with a sprinkle of sugar.

What have i done to make you not love me?
This isn't fair, why don't you love me?
I'm dropping down levels and levels from heaven and falling to my heels.
Hell is what I'm stepping with, a burden of pain on my back.
Confidence i gave and confidence i have no longer.
I have given it all to the extent i can.
So tell me, why don't you love me?
This is sincere from what i thought was love.
I've given it all, now I'm trash cant even throw a ball.
I am a problem for my myself and others.
I am a solution for my myself and others.
Wrapped in coming down to my senses, i have destroyed your purity.
I'm coming down without the drugs, I'm coming without the love, I'm coming by thinking of you and me.
The spark is already finished but just bear witness to these eyes that swallow your fears and doubts.
Jolly feeling runs faster than any mammal you can see.
I love her today, nothing matters today.
I'm free and you're free.
To bear down my lips on your lips, my own set of lips to kiss, lean on, and hold on.
I feel disconnected, i feel out of range.
What is this unconditional uncertainty uncomfortable position i am in?
Baby why don't you love me?
The spark is gone, yet you give me a smile.
I can embark, but you're already gone.
You're sleeping with the dogs.
You're getting ready to get dogged.
Only person i see everyday is you, i cant stop looking at you. I cant not see you.
I am so scared.
I tremble of the thought of floating alone.
I tremble when i tremble.
I fall and come.
We fall and im buried beneath.
To be gone from your aura, I'm damaging you.
To be gone from you is to die.
I love to touch your body, you hate to look at your body.
I love to feel your body, you hate to think of my body.
When we're gone, i feel like I'm lost with someone while being the guide.
The most valuable thing ever to grace my life.
I am trying my hardest.
I'm doing the best that I can.
I failed.
I'm not trying enough.
I'm not the best that i can.
I am nobody.
Locked in a space with no eyes viewing.
I'm floating and dripping off of dmt.
Why don't you love me?
I am numb from the inside out.
I feel frozen with a pumping heart of iron,
You're too good to be good, i love how good you are.
I'll sing a thousand songs to let you feel how it feels to witness mother nature.
I spend my nights alone pleading please.