The insecurities of dating a white boy (bwwm)

CHAPTER 34

Notice: this chapter has more mature-contents

Diere

"Ezrian" he abruptly turns around his face flush and lips swollen. That's when I see august walk up behind me.

"I can explain" he says moving away from the person he was kissing to reveal Kenny. I can't help but smile. As soon as I saw them together I knew there was something going on between them but when I turn around to see Augusts expression he dosent seem as happy as I do if anything he seems hurt as he walks away from the room.

"Shit! You don't think he's mad right?" Ezrian asks freaking out. I try to focus on him but the room starts moving around me.

"No I'm sure he's just shocked uhh I'll give you guys some alone time." I say as I try to leave but run into the door instead. I guess august closed it behind him.

"Wait are you high?" I nod my head yes as i feel my stomach growl loudly. He can't help but laugh. "Sorry Ken I gotta go I'll call you okay?"

He says giving Kenny a kiss on the cheek. I almost melt at the sight. Ezrian walks over to me wrapping an arm around my shoulder and walking me down the stairs and outside where we sit on the curb.

"You guys are cute" ezrian chuckles his cheeks turning red. As he fiddle with his shoelace.

"Thanks I'm sorry I didn't tell you I just didn't want things to change you guys are like my closest friends." I lay my head on his shoulder taking in a deep breath. We don't say anything else as we wait for the rest of the group to come outside. Instead we sit in a comfortable silence as the sounds of cars and loud music fill our ears. When angel walks out she dosent talk to me and Lucas is too high to tell me why. August follows behind them walking past both me and ezrian. I give ez a reassuring pat on the back. I wish I could tell him what going through Augusts head but no one says anything the whole car ride back to our separate houses.

"Thanks for the ride" august says as we step outside of the car. Angel just nods waving and not saying a word.

"Bye ang love you" I say hugging her through the window of the drivers door. She groans annoyed hugging me back. I can never stay mad at her and vise versa so we never argue for that long.

"Take care of her august" Angel says he nods. Ezrian pops his head from the back seat waving.

"Bye see you at school" he says and I stretch over angel to give him a hug too. "Thank you" he says and I know what he means it must've been hard for him to keep him being gay a secret. I nod my head pulling away.

"Bye" august says to ezrian and the others ezrian frown deepens as the car pulls off.

"Why are you acting like that towards him. He's still your friend august" I ask as we enter the house and into the kitchen. Not even in an angry way I'm just genuinely curious. He likes marciline from a adventure time and she's gay. I grab zebra cakes from the pantry and we both sit on the counter spitting it.

"Exactly he's my best friend. I've known him forever and he's never told me. He must not think much of our friendship if he could hide something that big from me" he says and I understand where he's coming from.

"August I'm sure he was just scared. It's a scary thing you know. You know he loves you though."  I try to explain to him. It dosent even feel like we're arguing because we're not. Because none of us are technically wrong or right. I just want him to know just because the people who love him hide something from him dosent mean they love him any less.

"Yeah I know it just hurts that he thinks that would change things between us that he never told me." August says looking down at his lap. August has always had this idea that if you can keep some part of yourself from someone you can't fully love them. That's why he's always transparent with me and it was always easy for us to share ourselves from the beginning. Maybe it's because of his parents are never transparent with them and he feels they don't know him.