I'm not a pretty girl not even average I would consider myself like a 3/10 5/10 on a good day with a face full of makeup and I'm fine with it you get used to being ugly over time
Don't get me wrong it was hard getting here I watched all the girls in my class get glow-ups grow boobs and ass
Their faces would change and more beautiful and feminine features would appear while I'm just here stuck with this ugly face and body
But I learned better than to expect to be like them
Or her, my old friend
We weren't close but we would play together a lot during the breaks in 1st to 5th grade
Then she started changing became more popular and prettier every day
We are still friends you could say
I know her secrets she knows mine too
But we don't talk about it
We barely talk at all
I usually only watch her from afar admiring her beauty while she walks in the hallway her cute grey backpack on her right shoulder
She would give me a small but genuine smile and I would give one back
Our eyes would meet in the cafeteria every single time she comes in It's like we are magnets my eyes usually never leave her
I want her so bad and she wants me too that's her secret It's not only the fact she likes girls but also the fact that it could be me
I'm just an ugly loser no one outside my friend group in school cares about me
Now imagine this goddess not only being gay but being gay with the ugliest girl in school
I don't blame her I really don't
So I don't do anything
I only watch
I choose to love you in silence
For in silence there is no rejection
