Second Life

Special Chapter.

Habang nagdidiwang ang lahat sa kasiyahan ng buhay nila ay may isang babaeng nagmumukmok sa loob ng kaniyang silid. She doesn’t want to go out and she don’t want to eat anything. She always cried every single day.

It’s been month since Kenzo died because of snake poisoning. Hindi na nagawa pa nilang ilibing ang katawan ni Kenzo dahil gusto ni Lianna na ipasunog na lamang ito. Wala silang choice dahil hindi rin pwedeng ipaburol ito dahil baka bigla nalang masunog ang kabaong o kung saan man ito dumadapo. They burned his body in the back of the mansyon. Iniwan din agad ni Julianna na hindi pa tapos mawala ang apoy dahil sa bigat at sakit na naramdaman niya. Masakit man pero kailangan niyang tanggapin na wala na ito.

Walang araw na hindi siya umiiyak. She was still mourning from his death. She can’t accept the fact that he’s already dead. Parang isang araw lang naging sila. She can’t deny that in those days, she was really in love. It was a first time feeling it but it was the best. Pero ganoon talaga, ang kapalit ng kasiyahan ay kalungkot. That’s how fair the world is.

Nanghihina siyang umalis sa kaniyang kama at pinunasan ang sunod-sunod ka luhang lumalabas sa pisnge niya. Every single day passes, her heart aches even more. She longed for him even more.

Mahina siyang naglakad papunta sa pintuan ng veranda ng silid niya. Nang hawiin niya ang kaniyang kurtina ay agad siyang napapikit dahil sa sinag ng araw na tumama sa kaniyang mukha. Dahan-dahan niyang iminulat ang mukha niya saka binuksan ang pintuan. Napahinga siya ng malalim at saka pinunasan na naman ang pisnge niya. Tumingala siya maaliwalas na kalangitan.

“H-Hello, Honey. Look at me. Y-You left me hurting. You are so unfair. Bakit mo ako iniwan? Is this my karma for dating a lot of guys at the same time?" sunod-sunod na naman ang luhang pumatak sa mga mata niya. Huminga siya ng malalim. “L-Lord... I may not be a good person but why did you took him away from me? Bakit? Am I not deserve to be loved? Am I deserve to be i-in love?” humagulgol siya at nanghihinang napaluhod sa sahig. Nakahawak siya sa kaniyang tuhod at dibdib. It pains her so much. “W-Why..." tuminga siya muli. “I’m b-begging you. Bring him b-back. P-Please...” tuminga ulit siya. “Bring him b-back to m-me.”

It was her first time talking to the mighty Lord above. It was her first time begging. She didn’t felt any embarrassment while doing it. Binaba na niya ang pride niya para lang maibalik ang lalaking pinakamamahal niya. It might be impossible for her but she believe and have hope to him even though she’s a big sinner.

Naghagulgol lang siya roon at nilabas ang lahat ng sakit na nararamdaman niya. Hanggang sa napahiga lang siya at humagikgik. She felt numb. She doesn’t want to move. Nakatulala lang siya roon.

Someone knocked the door but she didn’t paid any attention. Narinig niya iyon pero alam naman niyang ang mga kapatid o kaibigan niya iyon. They wanted her to go out and eat but she doesn’t want to. She prefer dying in hunger than going out and talk to them. She prefer staying in her room alone.

“Ate? Gising ka ba? Open the door!” rinig niya si Lianna sa labas ng pintuan pero hindi pa rin siya gumalaw. “Ate! I know you are awake! Please open the door! May bisita ka!” hindi pa rin siya gumagalaw.