What Can I Do? (renee rapp x reader)

Re(neé)currence (Part Three)

The Present Day (April, 2023)

Confessions

Your POV

God. She's so...fuck. How am I supposed to concentrate on her words when all I can think of is how her lips move when she talks, pink flesh parting softly when she opens her mouth? How am I supposed to listen to what she's saying when all I can hear is her husky, raspy voice, tired with a day of work at the studio, like soft hands massaging my temple? How am I expected to focus when I have her minty breath icily creeping up my neck? It's not my fault she's this mesmerizing. This entrancing. This beautiful. And I don't mean beautiful just in an appearance way, –although she is without a doubt the most breathtakingly stunning woman I have ever met– I mean beautiful as a person. She's awfully smart: her way with words not just in a lyrical context but in an everyday one never ceases to amaze me. She's incredibly witty: never struggling to put a smile on my face and make me laugh until my stomach throbs with giddy pain. She's wonderfully kind: thoughtful, empathetic and loyal to everyone she cares about and everyone who deserves it. How is a god like herself laying next to me?

"Earth to Clyde." She murmurs, raising an eyebrow as she waved her hand in front of my face to pull me from my pit of thought. "Is the marijuana already getting to you baby?"

"No." I giggle, the sound reverberating throughout the room like waves crashing against my body, no doubt because of the plant that now fogged up my brain. "You're what's getting to me." She smiles at me, creasing her face with a dopey look in her eyes which makes my stomach flutter. "I can't believe I ever thought I could get over you." I laugh but her smile fades. "Sorry, I know you got over me at one point so-"

"No I uh- I didn't." She says, her blue eyes gazing into mine. "I just pretended I did. It was easier that way. For me at least. The coward's way out." She murmurs the last part under her breath and she averts her eyes for a moment. "You've always been the braver one out of the both of us. Admitting your feelings instead of doing what I did."

I press my hand against her chest, feeling her skin shiver against my touch as I located her heartbeat. "You are not a coward." I whisper and that causes her to look back at me. "I don't know how many times I'll have to reassure you but I'll do it until you stop believing that." Her eyes become glassy and fearing I have made the moment awkward, my face loosens and I grin toothily. "So what did you do?"

Reneé smiles at me, in such a genuine happy way that it makes my heart threaten to beat out of my chest. "Well I dated other people while rewatching every single season of Dickinson and Fallout as well as any interviews you did."

"Stalker much?" I tease and she laughs, shoving my shoulder as we laid side by side on my bed. "Well I did the same, just so you know, Leighton Murray. So we're both just as bad."

"I also went to see you multiple times on Beetlejuice." She blurts out and then she immediately sits up, red with embarrassment.

I start laughing uncontrollably and put a hand on her shoulder. "Really?"

"Yeah! At first I tried to convince people to go with me but at one point I'd just end up sitting alone in the theater, gripping my forty fifth Beetlejuice slushy." She confesses and I start laughing again. "Ugh shhhhh, I know it's embarrassing." She mutters and I kiss her cheek.

"It's not embarrassing!" I protest and she deadpans. "Okay maybe a little...but it's super sweet Ray!" She smiles at me and I can see her lip quiver when I call her Ray. Almost as if she's read my mind she speaks again.

"I love it when you call me Ray." She admits, pinning me down against the bed. "I don't know why you call me it but I think it's the cutest thing ever. No one else calls me it."

"It's 'cause you're my Ray of sunshine. Plus I was tired of being demoted to using Nae like some common acquaintance!" I scoff snobbishly and she laughs, before peppering me with kisses which caused tingles to electrify my body as giggles poured out of me.

"That's really sweet, Clyde." She murmurs softly as she returns from her position to lay at my side again. She takes my hand in between hers and starts playing with my fingers, putting my rings on and off as she pleased. "Like really sweet."

"What can I say? I'm just so awesome and cool so ya know it comes naturally." I grin and she rolls her eyes while laughing.

"And arrogant." She adds before her eyes darken and she crawls on top of me. Her mouth finds my neck and her lips hook onto my flesh. "It's kinda hot though." She admits in between kisses which cause breathless pants from me. Her kisses start trailing down as she looks up at me for my approval. "Fuck I want you so bad." She whispers and my whole body is set on fire as blush sets on my face.

"What do you guys want for di-" Reneé scrambles to get off of me but it is too late, my bedroom door swings open to reveal the shorter girl clicking her tongue disapprovingly. "Jesus y'all really put the fuck in fuck buddies. Anyways, I've lost my appetite so I'll have dinner later. Order for yourself, losers." And with that, she leaves the room and the blonde returns to my side.

"That was awkward." I chuckle before kissing her cheek, but as I turn my face to her I notice she is lost in thought.

"Why does Jenna hate me?" Reneé mumbles quietly and frustration bubbles inside of me.

"Who cares?"

"I do!" She hisses and I angle her face to mine.

"She doesn't hate you! I mean she was the one who encouraged me to ask you out in the first place!" I remind her, her blue eyes still not meeting mine.

"I know, I know...but still. I can just tell she doesn't like me." She murmurs and I place a kiss on her forehead reassuringly.

"Jenna's just protective. I mean you did break my heart a couple of times so you can't blame her." I say and the last sentence makes her eyes widen. "But I'm sure she'll come around! Especially when she sees what I see: the most amazing person in the world!" I announce the last part and she giggles, the marijuana making me stumble on my words.

"Okay, okay." She laughs as she makes her way on top of me again. Her eyes narrow seductively and she bites her lip. "Now where were we?"

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A/M: HEY GAYS! 

I am so so sorry it's taken so long to me to update, I'm just really busy right now but enjoy this chapter! I really enjoyed writing it even if it is shitty lmao but it's also a fun little parallel/crossover to Get In Loser so ENJOY!