Chapters of a teenage girl

Ill be in the sun, sky, and sea

I'll be in the sun
Trying to shine away
While people look and hate me
Im too bright or too gay
I'm too happy or too tiredsome
But when it rains you want me back
You cannot bare the feeling of something new touching your back
Then you ask for the sun again
I come back and you still hate me
Everybody likes the darkness
But when darkness arrives, you look for the light
I want to be known as bright and pure
But everybody knows me as the person they want to go away
Everybody hides away from me
Going into the darkness once again
Am I that hard to love?
Is me, the sun, too hard to look at?
Im only here to light up the sky
But that's not enough for you
I just wanted to be as loved as the sky
I want to be as loved as you
As much as humans love each other
But you cannot bare my light
I'll be in the sky
Mood swings galore
God can't decide what he wants me to be
So he keeps playing around
People look up at me, trying to figure what's going on in my head
Everything is cloudy
I can't remember the last time someone said the sky is so pretty
because they're too busy looking at the moon or sun
I try to reach down and find you
But all I see is the color blue
Please god I say on my knees
Make me as important as the sea
God shakes his head and screams
Your only purpose is to stay where you are
Make it rain when we have drought
Make is sunny when it's cold
Make it cold when it's hot
But aren't I as special as the moon?
Everyone asks something from me
And when I can't make it rain
They curse into the sky
Why couldn't I make it rain?
Why couldn't I make it sunny?
Why couldn't I make it cold?
Why why why?
Everybody is always demanding never once asking me what I want
So I'll sit there and wait for someone to be happy
But I know I'll be sitting forever
Because that's what god wants from me
To shut up and be quiet
Give the people what they want
But I don't know how
I'll be in sea
Clear blue seas
Whooshing and waving
Hoping for someone to play with me
They throw trash in me
Like I'm some garbage disposal
I do not want your trash
And I do not want you
They put their children in my waters
And yell at me when I take them
I am just trying to have fun you see
I have fun with fish and crabs
But even people take them away from me
Why?
And they wonder why I am so angry
I just want to fun and be free
So I make the water cold for people to not touch me
They still go in and blame me
This why I hate being the sea
Everyone expects of me
And when they cross the shore
After I told them no
They wonder why I am so angry
It is not me it is them
They don't want me to be upset
But throw trash in me anyways
Why does everyone blame me?