i cant feel love anymore bc of that one person and i hate them for it, i can love someone else but i can never feel like it's returned and i know it's not fair, i constantly question and wonder if they really care, if it's all pity again, i just want to feel normal, i want to say i love you without feeling her hands on me again, i want to feel like im allowed to be loved without feeling disgusting when im given affection
