Love you forever. Johnnyboy

I loved you like the sun.

Ponyboy pov:
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I may like Johnny.

A lot.

Like. A lot.

I mean he gives my this great feeling that I've never felt with anyone else and he makes me so happy.

I hate to admit this.

I told Veronica is wouldn't work...
I couldn't like her in a way.
I mean I loved johnny and I fell for him so hard it was insane.
When he said he liked someone and it was a girl it just... I didn't like it.

And I realized I liked him then and every day after that I've liked him more and more

I can't find Johnny.
He headed out and said he would be back.
I tossed and turned for a long ass time
Before I couldn't take it and had to find him.

I had this weird impulse to check the bathroom.

When I walked in to see him in the bathtub I was definitely confused

I woke him up and he said to not hang up..?
Ok?

Anyways I grabbed his hand and without realizing it I held onto it till we got to our room where we laid down.

I took the opportunity and wrapped my arms around his waist and held is hand

We talked before he drifted to sleep finally

*phone ringing*

I was in an empty room.
Besides a phone mounted to a wall.

It was ringing.

And ringing

I walked over to it

"Pony! Pony can you help me? Where are you? Help me pony.."
"Johnny.. I can't help you"
"What?"
"I can't stand to tell you the truth.. I can't help you."
"Please help me pony"
"I can't.. I have to let you go."
"Once you hang up I'm dead please stay on the phone"

Don't hang up..

"Don't hang up?" I said
"Yes! Please. Don't.."
"I won't Johnny.."
"... I can't love you.. hell I can't even tell you how I feel.. you gotta hang up.."

*click*

I leaned on the wall and fell to the floor.

I held my face in my hands

Hot tears ran down my face.

I pick up my hands

The tears.. the dark blue teal ish tears that stained my hands like food dye.

And it stained my jacket.
It spread from my jacket to the walls.

Before I knew it the walls were a deep teal color.

I just sat there.
Scared.

I missed Johnny.
What was he talking? Hell I can't even tell you how I feel.

Hell I can't even tell you how I feel

My heart thumped in my chest and before I knew it

I coughed

And I coughed again.

And again but this time the same liquid that was my tears was coming out of my mouth.

I coughed and coughed until I passed out.

I had moment where I saw myself  laying down on the floor.

The blue liquid surrounded my body like blood from a stab wound.

Before I woke up.

I gasped and accidentally woke up Johnny.

"You ok?"
"Bad dream."
"Oh I'm sorry"
"It's fine. It wasn't so bad"
I lied.

I hated it.

He turned around and hid is head in my chest.

Causing me to turn so bright red I was practically glowing.

"Goodnight." I said
"Goodnight my love" he said

WHAT.
I- I JUST

I'm sure he didn't mean it

He's tired I'm sure he doesn't even know he said it.

I'm sure he doesn't know what he's doing.

After a while of thinking of what was happening

I fell asleep. Finally.

I woke up with Johnny still in the same place.

He was awake though

"You know you could've got up"
I ran my hand threw is hair to break up the grease
I didn't realize what I was doing.
My face got red and I stopped
"I didn't wanna it's cold"
"Yeah your in a jean jacket still"
"Still! I'm freezing."
"Your warm."
"No you are."
"Sure"

"Let's get up I guess" I said
"Alr"
He rolled over and almost fell but I caught him with my arm around his waist

"Ughh I'm so glad we don't have school" I said
"Oh yeah. What holiday is it now?"
"No clue some random one"
"Awe come on we ain't got school let's stay here"
"Sounds good"

He rolled back over and laid his head on my
His face towards the celling.

My heart ached.

I loved Johnny so much it hurt. I never wanted this moment to end.
The golden sun beaming in from the window hitting his face perfectly as he lays on my chest. I'm living the life I can't tell him.
I wanna.. but I can't.

It's for the greater good...

I- I don't know.