Oblivion \\ L.H

7- Sometimes You've Gotta Kill Your Mind To Stay Alive

LUKE HEMMINGS

~~  I wish i didn't care all the time ~~

'Hey bro , what are you doing.' Ben came into my room while i practising a few chords on my guitar. He had a cup of coffee in his hand and was wearing those incredibly embarassing glasses that kind of suited him.

'I'm feeling nervous for some reason. Last First day of school tomorrow.' I chewed on my lip , noticing that my piercing was slowly closing up. I got my lip pierced back in winter and I regretted it so much. I had rather small lips and the big ring didn't look half as good as I imagined. The only thing left from that piercing is the pain I got from it.

'Oh. Senior year. I get it. No pressure.' He patted my back. He leaned on my desk , smiling. He was getting so much fun out from this. Lucky dude had finished high school about 2 years ago and now was having such an amazing life.

'You added even more pressure.' I closed my eyes , slightly laughing. Ben looked around my disgusting room and started slowly tidying it up. Aria was probably coming over hence he always tidied up the house whenever someone was coming over.

'Get some sleep , you seem off. By the way , Aria is staying over tonight.' He said blandly then left , closing the door behind him. I placed the guitar onto the bed and sighed. I didn't even know what I was doing. I was looking for something to do fun since Calum was getting ready for school and Ashton had a dinner with his dad and step-sister Juliette. But truth is ; I hate playing the guitar. It's something that Ben tried to make me get into but I simply loathed the instrument.

'It's because i haven't seen her in 4 days.' I mumbled , not knowing what to do with my night.

I took off my shirt , looking at my fresh tattoo , the regret slowly kicking in. Ben had no idea about it and it had to stay like that. It was permantly inked onto my skin and I hoped that it would stay my little secret. It was a little tattoo at the end of my left cib rage , mirror mirror writen in cursive.

I was going to get a lot of shit for this , i know. But i couldn't stand being alone in this situation anymore. I've said it a million times before but she was such a knockout. A million words couldn't describe her appearance ; God knows how many it would take to describe her personality.

It wasn't something that was going to be gone once I scrubbed the area , I know. But these past few days made me re-think every single thing I could've done this past week. 

 Yeah i know it may seem very stupid to get a tattoo for a stupid event like this. You may think i'm high or crazy but i am seeing another human being in my reflections. And this is an event that will effect me forever. So why not ink my skin with it? 

I threw my head back , hoping she would show up soon in my life. I unzipped my pants , still looking at the mirror. I wasn't tired or sleepy at all ; infact I slept the whole day. I just didn't have the energy to bother with life anymore. Whenever I slept was the only time I wasn't permanently dead.

'Mirror mirror? Did you get that because of me?' She said really quietly. I didn't want to look hr in the eyes , I was beyond scared of eye contact at this point. I slowly slid down to lean on my bed and sat on the floor.

Shhe looked like she hadn't gotten any sleep either but as if it was even humanly possible she got moer and more beautiful every time I saw her. I've told you before , whenever we have this reflection connection it's like time has frozen and it's only us two as long as we don't take eyes off eachother.  This time , she talked. That immediatly put some ideas in my mind to rest. Hallucinations could talk but not like this. She was pulling me into her dimension and there was nothing I could do about it.