A Business Deal [MxM]

Chapter 6: Dhruv

***Mature content***

My legs tremble as I make my way up the stairs. What had gotten into me to be so rude to him? A day ago, I wouldn't have thought of doing what I had done just a few moments ago. I reach the first floor and look at him still standing in the courtyard, dumbstruck. To him, I said nothing but the truth. Truth that I deemed essential to shake him out of his complacency and cowardice. To make him see the world for what it is, not what and how he wants it to be. He is in predicaments around people. He cannot read the air. He behaves in a manner as if he is unaffected by everything, when in reality, he gets affected by the slightest of things. He puts up a brave front and thinks he can deal with situations around him, failing to realize that courage is not the consequence of outing up that front. It might be in someone else's case, but not his.

I take off my shoes and sprawl on the swing in the hall behind the terrace. He has been dying to ask me about yesterday. Mayank did give him the superficial details yesterday, but I could guess it through his prying eyes that those were insufficient. I might have answered him if he asked yesterday. But he scurried to his room when he heard the door of my room opening. He still peeked at me and Shashi. Before that, he kept standing in the courtyard after Shashi took me inside upon his arrival. Little does he know that my intention of ending things peacefully very finely failed due to his own reactions, and my incompetence at concealing my inner turmoil.

Shashi quickly registered that I was not being myself when I kept staring at the door, anticipating a knock anytime. A few moments, a few minutes must have passed that way. I could not bring myself to be with Shashi in that moment, let alone meet his eyes. Shashi grabbed my face in his hand the way he always did and pulled me into a kiss. I felt nothing. It aroused my senses for a moment, but beyond that, there was nothing. It was abnormal for me to feel nothing around Shashi. Admittedly, he was one person with whom I had felt the most. I could feel his teeth crashing against mine and his tongue making his way into my mouth. For some reason, I couldn't pull myself back. I was devoid of that energy.

He slowly let go of my face and slipped his hands down. He pulled down the track pants I was wearing. I was naked waist below. Did he not realize I was not kissing him back? He grabbed my butt and pulled me closer to him. He pinched and squeezed it. He brought his right hand in the front to grab my cock, but I stopped him from doing so. I broke away from the kiss and took a step back. I pulled up my pants. He was taken aback too.

"I'm sorry.", I said.

He stared at me for a while before replying. "I am sorry. I should have asked for permission. I was just so glad to meet you that ... that it was the first thing I thought of..."

"You didn't even ask me how I was doing." My emotions were getting out of hand. I knew my grand plan would fail terribly.

He took a step towards me, and I took a step back. I was as confused as him. I was no longer in control of my actions. "What's the matter with you?", he asked.

"I don't know anymore." I licked my lips. "I think we should end things here. That's what I wanted to tell you."

He said nothing for a while. He kept staring at me as if I had said something preposterous. Sinful. "Why?"

"The way things turned out..."

"I thought we were separating only until Jagat got married."

"There's a huge bridge between us now."

"So long as it's a bridge we can cross it."

"It's a valley, not a bridge. I misspoke. And we cannot cross any bridge. I cannot bring myself to look at you in the eye. I am embarrassed, ashamed of what my family did to you. To us, I mean."