Forbidden Love- Leah Williamson

Chapter Thirty-Four

Maeve

I woke up in the arms of a girl who had confessed her love to me less than 24 hours ago.  I should be waking up full of happiness and joy, but no. 

I woke up pissed off. 

The only image I had in my head was her hand on Leah's chest.  The way she smirked as she looked at Leah, the way Leah played along with her for a few moments. Like she was enjoying the jealousy I was showing her. 

I was jealous of Leah and this girl, of course I was, I mean she was mine. 

Last night Leah told me that she was on love with me, she screamed it in my face.  Confessing what I wanted to hear, but it only happened because I had stormed out. I guess my insecurities were the issue right now, I was scared that she had only told me she was in love with me because I was mad at her. 

I wiggle out of her grip as she continued to sleep, the second I stood over her I had a feeling of sickness in my stomach.  I looked down at a girl that I had fallen in love with, I looked back at her.

During our argument she confessed she had slept with Hannah.  I was mad at her, because why did she invite Hannah in the first place? I would never be okay with a girl that she had slept with being there. 

"Come back to bed" Leah groans, her eyes stay shut but she was aware of my presence lacking from the bed.  I wish I wasn't so insecure, I wish that I wasn't so sensitive because I knew this would cause a problem between us. 

But right now I was scared that everything said last night was a lie. 

Hannah was beautiful, she was drop dead gorgeous and I was here sleeping with my sisters best friend. 

"I'm okay" I say before heading into the bathroom. 

I get in the bathroom and look back at myself in the mirror.  I looked like a mess, my hair was practically back combed and my mascara was smudged under my eyes. 

I hear footsteps before the door opens.  I turn my head to meet the eyes of Leah as she looked at me with a frown on her face.  I wore her T-shirt and my underwear as she stood there in a sports bra and shorts.  The second my eyes connect with hers I look back away from them once again, I was scared. 

I was scared that this love that she had confessed for me wasn't true.  I didnt want to be in another relationship like Emily.  I knew in my heart that Leah wouldnt do that to me. 

I also couldn't help but listen to those voices that were telling me that I wasn't quite good enough for Leah. 

"Maeve?" she questioned me as she steps closer to me. I felt her hand come to my lower back as she touched me and I pull away, "whats happened?"

Leah was genuinely confused, of course she was.  When we fell asleep we had told each other that we were in love.  Here I stand looking at her like I didnt know who she was, but I couldn't help but see her with another girl the second my eyes met hers. 

"I dont want to talk about it" I snap.  I was being harsh, I knew I was being a bitch but my insecurities had taken every part of my being right now. 

"Im really fucking confused" she says with a frown on her face, "I told you I love you last night, now you're acting like I told you that you meant nothing to me"

"I said I dont want to talk about it" I say once again, but Leah looked at me. 

She looked at me like I was evil, like I had ruined everything.  I guess I was, if I had just kept my mouth shut this morning could have been magical.  But I couldn't keep my mind away from the image of Leah and Hannah sleeping together. 

Everything that she had done to me, I couldn't help but think she had done them to Hannah.  If she had whispered the same sweet nothings to her. 

"Maeve, you're being weird" she scoffs, she was getting more annoyed at me by the second. 

Understandably. 

"Oh my god please just leave me alone!" I snap at her, "go back to Hannah or something"

Why was I doing this, I dont know?

I was here self sabotaging everything.  Leah had told me that she loved me, I should be happy right now.  

"Oh fuck off" she snaps right back at me.  She pushed off the door frame as she went to walk away before coming right back "why are you trying to ruin this?"

"Me!" I shout back at her "you brought a girl that you've slept with to rub in my face"

I watch as Leah runs her hands down her face.  I look at her waiting for her to say something back to me. 

It was almost like I wanted the argument, like I wanted her to fight for me. 

"I told you she was there, I cannot control where she goes and I am sorry, but you're the one that I love not her" she snaps at me.  I stand there looking at her, "I didnt want to bring her and I didnt want her there in case you haven't noticed I only want you"

"You've slept with her Leah" I shout right back at her. 

"You dont think I felt this way when your fucking girlfriend showed up after you kissed me!" she threw back at me "you took her back after everything that happened between us, do you not think that hurt me?"

"That was totally different"

"I apologised, you never did" she threw at me. 

She was right. I didnt say sorry.  Hearing her entire voice as it breaks in front of me, it hurts. I dont want to hurt her but I had. 

Leah had hurt me too. 

God why was I ruining everything, I couldn't just let myself be happy. 

We stood there staring at each other, waiting for the next person to say something.  I wanted to tell her I was sorry, and I didnt want to hurt her.  I also didnt want to argue but I couldn't let myself say sorry. 

"I have somewhere to be, why dont you message me when you decide to stop ruining this" she snaps at me before walking away. 

It took seconds before I heard the door slam. She had left me there in the bathroom. 

I was  in love with Leah, I was so in love with her but I was sat here ruining everything. 

Fuck this. 

I grab my phone and text Sophie. 

Maeve: Shopping trip? Its on Leah

Sophie: I won't say no to that!!