Forbidden Love- Leah Williamson

Chapter Thirty-Five

Leah

I was confused, I was so damn confused I couldn't even understand what had just happened.

I told her the one thing that I was sacred to tell her last night. Maeve had told me that she loved me too but this morning she acted as if it had never happened. Like I had done nothing but rub Hannah in her face.

I knew her being there was a mistake, one I had made. But I tried to make things better, I did all I could to make her feel better. I didn't want to lose her, we were just about to have time alone with Skye leaving.

Why would I risk this?

I wanted to rub to Skye, I wanted to rant about Maeve but she was the one person I couldn't talk to about this. As much as I wanted to.

I had walked down into the lobby before walking down the roads. I had no destination planned, I didn't know where the fuck I was going. I mean where would I go, I couldn't go to Skye.

I only had one other person that I could go to.

My feet carried me to Keira's door, I didn't know where else to go. As my fist is raised I knock on the door. It takes a few seconds before the door opens and I see the bright smile of Keira Walsh in front of me.

"Well well Leah Williamson" she chuckles before pulling me in for a playful hug. I was stood there looking back at her as we pull away from the hug.

I kind of felt numb right now. The girl that I was in love with was casting me aside like I was trash.

"What's up?"

The second Keira looked at me she could see that something was wrong. I mean I didn't smile at her, I was full of confusion and I was just about to confess one of my biggest secrets.

"Can I?" I say referring to coming into her room.

She opens the door and I walk in. I headed to the first seat that I could see. I sat down letting out a sigh. I look back at her as Keira sits opposite me, she had concern on her face.

She had no idea what the fuck was going on in my head.

If I was honest I didn't really know what was going on. I mean the Maeve I knew wasn't the same girl that was in front of me this morning. I didn't know if she was just scared or if she lied when she said it back.

"What's going on?" Keira asks me and I look at her thinking about what to say.

How to tell her about Maeve. I mean I was a bad person. She was Skye's sister, the one woman in the world that I wasn't allowed to take as mine.

It was too late for that, she was already mine.

"I've been doing something bad" I whisper, first the confession then the problem.

"What do you mean?"

"Maeve" I say, I didn't need to say much else. I watch her face turn into realisation, she knew exactly what I was talking about.

"Skye's sister?"

I don't reply, I just nod slowly. I watch Keira's hand come up to her mouth as she looks back at me in shock. Her head shook as she mumbled something that I couldn't hear, I just knew she was probably questioning what the fuck I was doing.

"Leah" she says, "why have you done this?"

"It didn't mean to start like that"

"I assume Skye doesn't know"

"She has no idea, but that's a different problem and not really the one I'm dealing with"

"And what is?" she asks very confused, I mean what else could be the issue in her mind.

I take a deep breath before looking up at her, I really didn't know what to do.

"I told her I loved her last night, this morning she was completely different to last night. It was if she regretted what she said to me, like her telling me she was in love with me too was a mistake"

She looks at me with a small hesitation, I didn't know what she was thinking. But I also didn't know what the hell Maeve was thinking, I didn't know if this had all been too quick for her. I knew she had a relationship before me, I also knew bringing up Emily the way I did hurt her.

I knew that was wrong, but she was hurting me.

"What happened before you told her you love her?" Keira asks, I feared this could be the moment she would tell me I was a jackass.

"Hannah was there"

"You told her you're in love with her after she met the girl you'd slept with before?"

When she puts it like that.

Fuck, I guess it looked like I said it to shut her up. Perhaps that's what happened, she thinks I only said it to keep her quiet.

"I hope you know how stupid that is" Keira tells me, it was that moment I throw my head into my hands.

Fuck, perhaps Keira was right, I mean I just didn't do it the way I wanted to. I screamed It at her in fact, but here I am debating every decision and word I said.

"Did she see Hannah?"

"She got upset and that's when I sai-"

"You need to go fix this shit, especially if you love her"

"I do! I love her more than anything. I haven't cared about anything or anyone the way I care about her"

"Tell her" Keira says to me.

I look at her, I had hardly been gone under an hour. She couldn't have gone anywhere, I hoped she hadn't left.

After a quick goodbye, I leave Keira's room. I wish I could say I walked back to Maeve's room. But I didn't walk, I ran so fast. I ran as fast as my legs to take me.

I had to tell her that I was in love with her, I love her because she's made me feel things I've never felt before.

God I couldn't lose her.

I burst through the door so quickly, I honestly am surprised I didn't knock myself out against the door.

"Maeve!" I scream, the second the entire room came into view I saw that she wasn't there.

She was gone.