THE AUTISTIC

Red Diary

There's a very famous saying, 'Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me'. Apo knew he was doomed right after his interaction with Mile. He was falling into a pit of wasteful love again, which was destined to make a fool out of him and it seemed to be starting off right now. 

No sooner did Mile enter the grade than Preen threw herself at him. He continued to hug her back in return but in parallel his eyes scanned across his classroom in search of Apo. He did eventually find him glaring at the two. When he made an eye contact, the angry boy just averted his gaze and geared up with his mysterious red diary to leave.

"I had begun to miss you, although its just been less than an hour.", his current girlfriend uttered which sounded possessive rather than loving. But it wasn't the matter of concern to him at the moment; Apo was the matter of concern, who had rushed out just like water gushing down an open dam. Ignoring Preen, he too stepped out and luckily Apo was yet walking in the hallway timidly.

As Mile followed the other guy he discovered his new hideout, the school's terrace. With increase of steps climbed, the vulnerability increased; his legs were crying out to stop, more than his eyes. But he didn't seem to be ready to give in until he reached his destination, he kept flying like a hot air balloon. Mile wanted to interfere, but his curiosity forbid him from doing so. Finally, once the terrace arrived, the boy took several deep breaths before he let out a loud scream  hysterically followed by another scream which was the name 'MAI', frantically. He seemed to be frustrated due to the longing ness and things seemed to be unraveling, as apparent as ripening of a fruit; just that it was overripening stage occuring at the moment.

Mile himself was in the midst of a battle on deciding whether he had to walk a few steps ahead of him to console the other or give him his time of solitude  colaterally allowing the things to become more apparent. He did seem to like him, beyond friendship and Jeff was sort of right. But the depth of his feelings was yet awaited to be exhibited.

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While Mile had drowned deep within his thoughts, a sight of two small kittens approaching Apo fell into his eyes.

The two kittens who might be less than 60 days old walked to the guy who stood at the open end of the terrace, holding onto the grill, filled with misery; trying to comfort and divert his mind away from his unrequited love. They were mini angels sent by God to bring a smile upon his young and clear face.

The small cats began rubbing their body against Apo's accompanied purring, which was the most comforting thing the boy could have asked for. He sat down on the ground, to get better access to them. He squeaked, "Mai, Apo" which was followed by the young kittys meowing, since it were their names.

 It was a million dollar sight to watch and Mile couldn't help but let out two to three drops of tears out, with hits of realisation of how significant he was to the other guy and how his behaviour from past one month seemed to be highly immature. Mile had been away from Apo out of his internal ego by reasoning out, 'he might need some space', his love life had been his highest priority since school had begun to such an extent that he had forgotten to spend his time with the unfortunate soul. At that moment, the guilt inside was eating him alive with enthusiasm as high as those kittens running around Apo. 

His unanswered questions were replaced by the reasons why he had to be beside his friend right now. Whether Apo liked him or not didn't matter to him anymore, instead whether he was wrong  on his counter part mattered. He felt he was an absent minded obnoxious brat, to slip away from the other guy. Just as his guilt kept ghosting him,  he heard his name called. When he looked in Apo's direction, he found a confused and concerned facade instead of an angry and annoyed one. 

Mile was invading his privacy, he had followed him secretively, he had not considered his presence for a whole month yet the the guy was currently concerned about tears in his eyes and not all the bad things he had unknowingly committed.