THE AUTISTIC

Profess of Love

The time had finally arrived, it was night time, everyone were fast asleep and a perfect timing to commit an innocent heinous crime of reading someone's personal journal; Mile sat on his study desk with Apo's diary under in his dim lit bedroom. He felt a pang of guilt, shame and anger arise within him. But he didn't have different way out to solve mystery of a broken bridge named Apo.

The guy who seemed to be calm and serene as a still water had, bit and kicked him within a span of two days and the origin of impulsion seemed to common, Preen.

Did Apo seriously see Mile in the light of love?

But how was it possible for a boy to like another boy romantically??

Do things as such really happen and workout just like Jeff explained to him?

Mile was genuinely curious and confused about the unexplored territory. The sorrow filled physical attack by Apo did make feel him like he was a convict at fault; he did feel an additional abhorrence in addition to the one due to the unpermitted kiss. He also wanted to know about his friend's past.

What his aftermath reaction would be, if Apo did like him?

Will he be able to return the same feelings to the boy?

The answers to these questions sprinting were as unknown as the number of aquatic creatures yet to be discovered.

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Dear Mai, my Mai,
I might sound selfish when I say I want you all for myself; the goodness and the beauty that you behold is like a spark of assurance of certainty in this chaotic life of mine.

You have committed a sin by turning me into a romantic fool, my Prince Charming.

I am clueless about when I fell in love with you...
Perhaps in the church;
Perhaps when you rescued me from the mob of richess;
But I am sure about the fact that my heart is filled completely with,
Thoughts about you;
Glances by you;
And the Moments I spend with you.

All the hardships and miseries I have lived through seems now worth it;
They serve as the reasons for why I had to live through it..

People might rage against the exclusive love of mine;
But that doesn't stop me from wishing you to be mine....

Despite the debates on whether I am worth it,
Hopes keep my heart alive;
Perhaps you might like me a bit....

Thoughts of losing you are worse than dying;
Cause I have surrendered my entire living.

Please spare a glance at me,
my love..
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My heart was shattered
in a span of few minutes;

My love was confiscated in a span of few minutes;

No wonder people say destruction occurs in a span few minutes.

But irrespective of it all, I just wish I could have a part of him.

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I know you are suffering just like me, my love And I apologise for the pain I am causing......

But it is the only possible way I see to mend broken soul.

My heart is warmed, Just by glancing at your smile; A sweet battle has begun to stir within me at the moment; Have you ever heard of a person , Who see their present as a dream? I am one such;

You are my dream........

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I am willing to change myself , As you like;

I am willing to surrender, Whatever you like;

But can you like me in return, Just the way I like.

On the last page MileApo's polaroids were stuck with a note, My destiny.

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Mile knew he was doomed once he went through Apo's red diary. He panicked by the fact Apo was actually in love with him, so deep that he professed his love in form of poems and the book was based only on him.

But both were boys, how could a boy like another boy?

Did he feel love to his rare admirer the same way???
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I know this one is a very short chapter, but I think it deserves an exclusive and special ending as written above.
To be honest, this chapter was the hardest one for me to write.
Meet you guys soon❤