What You Do To Me

Starting Over Chapter One

-Hi!! Okay so this story is kind of based off of real events but also isn't?? It's my first story so I hope you enjoy!! If you enjoy please give feedback!! -

- "You knew exactly what you were doing, and that's what hurts the most."

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It's been a year since you asked me out. I mean, I know it's kind of weird to think about that, especially since we aren't together anymore. Most people thought we would've lasted until now but, it's whatever. You hurt me, just like the rest. So, of course I'm going to be confused, when a year later you text me out of no where, acting like nothing happened.

"Lil, I don't know why you're freaking out, you literally talk about how cute he is to this day," Madi said rolling her eyes and sitting down at our usual spot in the obnoxious cafeteria.

"That does not mean that I want him back in my life!" I say throwing my bag on the table
and lazily sit next to her. I hear girls screaming on the other side of the cafeteria and I shake my head. I hate half of the girls in this school.

"That's not what you were saying a few months ago."

"Yeah, well, that was a few months ago. I do not want an asshole like him, in my life again." Okay fine, I might be lying.

"I know Leo hurt you, but you really loved him. So, don't you think you should just give it a chance?" Madi said as she dug through her own personal Narnia that she calls a purse.

Okay, I really did love Leo. He wasn't scared to let people know I was his. But, of course, I messed it up because I thought I wasn't good enough. I mean, it's not really my fault for having trust issues. Okay, maybe it is, but still. I loved him, and to be completely honest, I compare every guy I talk to, to him. Yeah, that guy is cute, but is he like Leo? Sure, that guy is funny, but is he as humorous as Leo? Do you see what I'm dealing with?

"Madi, I know I loved Leo. He was all I ever wanted and still do want. I mea-"

"See you do want him back! I told you!" I didn't think she was even paying attention by now , I thought she was too busy scrolling through her social media.

"Oh my god, I'll see you later okay? I'm not eating today" I was avoiding her gaze because I knew how she felt when I didn't eat.

"Lilac, you better freaking eat. I will shove pizza down your throat!" I could feel her glare without even looking at her

" I'll eat tomorrow, swear. I'll text you after school, okay?" I was staring at my converse while I walked off, hoping she didn't stop me this time.

Leo is the kind of guy, you never want to let go of. You dream of getting married, and having kids. Even growing old together. He's the kind of guy that makes you feel things that you didn't know you could feel. He shows you off to the world, because you're his world.

I'm the kind of girl, that is always the second choice. Yeah, Lilac is pretty, but this other girl is prettier. Lilac is smart, but not as smart as that one girl. I love Lilac, but I love this girl more so I'm going to cheat on Lilac. The usual.
I haven't always been this down on myself. I used to be pretty happy actually. But, at some point in our life, we all have a low point. And I think I'm at that point. I mean I haven't self-harmed in awhile, which is obviously good. But, I'm still sad, you know? It's been almost a year since he broke up with me, and ever since I've just been kind of sad. Even when I don't have a reason, I'm just sad. He was what kept me going I guess. He reminded me that I was actually worth something. I was so addicted to him. He was what I thought about when I started my day until when my day ended. He was always on my mind. I don't think I'd be here if it wasn't for Madi, which is kind of hard for me to admit.

Madi and I haven't been friends for long, but it feels like I knew her in a different life. We connect to well and she understands what I'm going through. Other people make fun of me, and there she is, telling them why they have no room to talk. We're kind of complete opposites, but also the same person. She's more girly and cheery, and I'm kind of the girl people are scared of because I look like I'll punch them in the face. Which, is a benefit and a con but mostly a benefit. She's also the kind of girl that guys drool over. I'm more of the girl guys like to play video games with and act like I'm one of the dudes. So, when she asks to hang out in public, it's kind of hard to see her get all the looks from guys and I'm just kind of in the background. But hey, I love her to death. She's literally my other half.

I'd been staring at my ceiling, drowning in my thoughts, for hours when I heard my phone go off. I groaned checking it and then my heart stopped. Why was Leo texting me at two a.m?

Leo: Hey
Lilac: Um hi?
Leo: Come outside
Leo: Please
Lilac: Why??
Leo: I wanna see you
Lilac: What do you mean?
Leo: I'm outside.

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