Why?
My favorite question.
Not because I ask it with love but more with passionate aggression.
Everything has a reason and that I need to know.
Why is the sky blue?
Why does the wind blow?
Most things in my life were labeled "uncertain".
Rooted from my brain I have always been a burden,
So time and time again I had to prove That I was worth having and in gaining me, they did not lose
But time and time again I got miserably rejected
And instead of getting back up I fell short and projected.
They questioned my existence so I questioned them back.
I questioned the moon and the stars, every zodiac.
I questioned math equations instead of copying them off the board.
There must be a reason why x equals 4.
But "why" was my problem, an unsolved task
It became an obsession, my most frequently asked.
But I got no replies. No one seemed to care like I did.
No ink on the blank lines I had so graciously provided.
I had to fill them up myself to take my uncertainty
Alas my loaded gun of curiosity was pointed back at me.
I questioned my self worth, questioned my awkward silence.
I questioned why I deserved any form of kindness
Like the food on my plate, the clothes on my back,
The friends that I've made you touching my hand.
Why did you touch my hand?
I swear I can't get that off my mind
Because ever since you did it, I've been wanting to turn back time.
You looked at me from across the room, I thought that I was dreaming
And out of all the goddesses in class, you chose to call me pretty.
That question of "why" was boiling in my brain
Back to that old cycle yet it didn't feel the same,
But I asked you anyway and what you said felt like treason.
That's the thing about love, not needed to have a reason.
And from that day on "why" never escaped my lips
And when you told me you loved me, I never questioned it.
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𝕀 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕤 𝕠𝕟𝕖, 𝕚𝕥 𝕣𝕝𝕝𝕪 𝕕𝕠𝕖𝕤 𝕤𝕙𝕠𝕨 𝕙𝕠𝕨 𝕞𝕦𝕔𝕙 𝕀 𝕟𝕖𝕖𝕕 𝕤𝕠𝕞𝕖𝕠𝕟𝕖 𝕚𝕟 𝕞𝕪 𝕝𝕚𝕗𝕖...🥲
𝐺𝑜𝑜𝑑𝑏𝑦𝑒.<333
