𝕃𝕚𝕗𝕖♡

ℂ𝕣𝕦𝕤𝕙𝕖𝕤

Crushes
I've had too many of them.
A few months, it would take, for the feelings to end.
And then, I'd met you
But this time, I fell too soon.
I fell too hard, with no regard.
With no regard for me,
For you,
And the agony we'd go through.
And I knew you weren't just a crush when one year passed,
And it was still you.
And then the second year came,
It was still you.
And they say "Third times a charm",
But then the third year came,
And it is still you.
I don't know that it will never not be you,
And that scares me.
Scares me to the ends of the earth.
As if my walls were caving in to the question of my hearts worth.
It's meaning, It's reasoning.
Does anyone else feel sickening?
Like you're vile or gross.
Or maybe just hypocritical.
Telling all your friends their being dramatic.
And yet this "crush" hasn't left.
Four years.
This is the last time.
Five years.
I've missed the past time.
Six years.
Is it not enough?
Seven years.
Can't I call this bluff?
Eight years.
Well aren't you rough?
Rigid? Stiff? Maybe Firm?
What the fuck haven't I earned?!
Nine years.
When will it end.
Ten.

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This kinda hurt my heart..
Goodbye...<333