Echoes of Love

Without you

⚠️Tw:PTSD, anxiety, depression and ARFID, therapy, hospital, doctors, nutritionist, bullying, food restrictions, body dysmorphia, weight loss, eating disorders⚠️

Harry's pov:
2 weeks have passed since Louis was sick and is back at school again. He started back last Wednesday but he was originally meant to start back the week before but when we arrived at school that morning he had a massive panic attack and so we didn't go to school and I promised him that we wouldn't go back until the week after.

I kept my promise to him and we started back Wednesday . It was a bit of a struggle to get him out of bed and to eat breakfast that morning as he was nervous and overwhelmed about going back to school.

Lou is still finding it hard to get back into a routine for school but he's slowly getting back into it. We were meant to speak to the principal when we got in to school last Wednesday morning but we didn't as I thought we should let Louis just have the two days to get used to being back in school and being around everyone again.

I went into the office during one of my classes on that Wednesday and told them that we would speak to the principal on Monday as Louis is just trying to get used to being back in this environment again.

Currently I am awake and Louis is still very much fast asleep on me and he is not waking up which I am not surprised about because he's always like this in the morning, he is definitely not a morning person that is for sure.

I roll him off me gently and get up and go for a shower since he ain't gonna join me because he is still asleep so this is his punishment for not getting up.

Once I got out of the shower, I got dressed and fixed my hair to look somewhat okay and not like I had been dragged backwards through a bunch of bushes.

I walked out of the bathroom and back into our bedroom to see Louis just now starting to toss and turn his sleep. I walked over to his side of the bed and crawled in to bed behind him, I wrap my arms around him and pull him against me to try calm him down.

Louis was meant to see his nutritionist today but if I can't get him up and out of bed and to school now without him crying and having a panic attack or being extremely overwhelmed or overstimulated.

How am I supposed to get him to his appointment that afternoon when he will be the same going there because all they have talked about so far with him is about what foods he restricted him self from eating and also the amount of food he allows himself to eat

Lou was diagnosed with PTSD, anxiety, depression and ARFID,Louis was only diagnosed recently with ARFID (avoidant restrictive food intake disorder) when we went to the hospital for his check up with the doctor 2 days ago.

When they were asking him how his eating had been he didn't want to say anything and I told them he had been really picky and refusing food.

He also had a dramatic weight loss when they weighed him and compared it to his last weight they had on file. Louis was always skinny as a kid and even now, when we looked at the weight change he had loss about 44 pounds (20kg) since last in the hospital.

Louis is now seeing his therapist 2 times a week on Mondays in the afternoon and Fridays in the mornings. He also is now sees a nutritionist who specialises in eating disorders and unhealthy eating habits on a Wednesday in the afternoon.

He hates seeing more people especially his therapist because I could only be in the room for his first 2 appointments and then he had to be on his own which makes him more less likely to open up about his feelings and thoughts.

The only other appointment I can only go to besides all his doctors appointments and be in the room is to his nutritionist appointments as he can't be trusted to follow the prescribed diet or rules that he needs to follow.