Gabriella and Antonio stand outside the house and as he explains his being there he puts his right hand on Gabi's waist and softly pushes her back into the bricks of the house, then he places his left arm over her head leaning onto the wall
Toni: I couldn't stay away Gabs, sorry
Gabi: What if Terrel catches us
Toni: Like I told you, it's all innocent baby, plus I know he's not here, I watched him leave a minute ago
Gabi: Oh... didn't know that you kn-
Toni: It's all good, I know it was just a what if. But what if- me and you go inside and chill, it's been a long time stranger
Gabi stands still in shock but she snaps out of it when Toni grabs her by the hand and takes her back inside the house, they walk past Alex on the couch hand in hand and back to Gabi's room, as they enter Gabi start to take off her shirt but Toni stops her and says "hey, I told you it's all innocent, I won't fuck another man's woman, especially if they're pregnant with his baby." Gabi looks shocked.
Gabi: How did you know I'm pregnant? Is it that obvious? I thought I wasn't showing yet...
Toni: I wouldn't have known but yo man had to let it be known, I guess he thought it would run me off but nah, I just got you back in my life and I don't wanna let go, even if he stays in the picture, cuz you don't gotta be my girl, just friends.
Gabi: (blushes) Oh.. well I mean.. what now?
Toni: (smiles) I don't think it's any secret that I wanna be yours but I'm not a fucked up guy and you know this, so let's just... talk
Gabi: (flustered and blushing harder) Okay, talk about what? You and I?
Toni: Nah, just you, I've seen you on tour a few times about a year ago, you've taken a long break from doing any shows and your social media presence has died down a lot, so why is that, you been okay?
Gabi: Honestly when I got off tour I was considering goin on a hiatus but I didn't, well I guess I kind of have, it was just before Terrel I was with this guy named Maxx and when I came back from tour I found out that all of my suspicions were true and that he was cheating on me. I kept quiet for a while because I didn't want confrontation, it was like keeping quiet was keeping the peace but it was his peace not mine. One night I went through his phone and I snapped then... (Gabi chokes up and Toni puts an arm around her and she continues) then he put his hands on me, and that same night I left and never went back... He's dead now, he was shot and killed and although I shed some tears I couldn't be sad, I realized that even though he wasn't good to me he was all I knew for so long, and I can't stop trying to find his qualities in Terrel, but when I first got with Maxx I tried to find all of you in him Toni... all of you. I met Terrel after that and he's good to me, and I do love him but sometimes I can't help but think we moved way too fast, like I never got the chance to heal, and like I never got the opportunity to choose if he was really what I wanted, but now I'm stuck and I can't do anything about it.
Toni: Damn Gabi, I'm so sorry, I should've just followed you to New York, then this wouldn't have happened, because you didn't deserve it at all
Gabi: It's fine, I'm used to my life kind of crumbling, and now this baby, I just... (she starts to cry) what do I do Toni, please just tell me, I need you to tell me
Toni completely embraces her in his arms and she starts to calm down
Toni: I don't know what to tell you G, I'm sorry, and even as a man I'm not scared to say that I cried when you left like a lot, even though we were already over I couldn't help myself but look for you too, I needed you... I still need you
Gabi: I need you too, I'm so sorry I left, honestly my dreams came true but I almost feel like it was never worth it now, I lost the only man that loved me the way I loved him, and I ended up with a life I'm not sure I even wanted
Toni: You could change that, you should change that, for once make yourself happy and not someone else, you deserve that
Gabi closes her eyes and lays her head on Antonio's shoulder and just lays there, he holds her for a long while and as he does she starts to sing "When we were young" by Adele.
She sings in whispers saying
"You look like a movie
You sound like a song
My God this reminds me, of when we were young
Let me photograph you in this light
In case it is the last time
That we might be exactly like we were
Before we realized
We were scared of getting old
It made us restless
It was just like a movie
It was just like a song
I was so scared to face my fears
Nobody told me that you'd be here
And I'd swear you moved overseas
That's what you said, when you left meYou still look like a movie
You still sound like a song
My God, this reminds me, of when we were young"
Toni: You really know how to make a song match the moment
They both chuckle and Gabi says "What if it's you I want and nothing else?"
Toni: I don't know, I love you but I don't know if I'm willing to take care of another mans baby you know. I don't know if I'm willing to be a "step daddy"
Gabi: I get that and I wasn't asking you to, I just wanted to know
Toni: Well I guess that you could
Gabi pulls back from Toni and sits still for a moment, then she gets up and pulls her shirt up exposing her small belly bump, Toni stands up and places his hand on it and looks into her eyes
Gabi: My baby should've been yours, no one else's
Toni keeps staring into her eyes and says "It should've been, but it's not, and I can't make it mine, your kid already has a father and no one else should be it"
Gabi: I know Ant, I know, let's just listen to music or something
Toni agrees and as a slow Lana Del Rey song starts to play called "Brooklyn Baby" they both sit in silence and look at their relationship in retrospect thinking of how they should've just stayed together and built the life they both wanted but they didn't, and now they have to deal with the consequences of it. Feeling as if they ruined their own lives, especially Gabi. When the song is over Toni stands back up and hugs Gabi tightly then kisses her forehead and he heads out. Gabi is left at home with her sister and she doesn't want to wallow in her thoughts so she goes to the room her sister is sleeping in and wakes her.
Gabi: Alex I need you (she starts to cry)
Alex wraps her arms around her big sister and just listens to what she has to say and that's how they sit for hours, they end up falling asleep in the same bed which they hadn't done since they were really young and their dad had moved them out to LA for the first time and they almost went broke. It brings back memories for Gabi but Alex was too young to really remember those times. To Gabi life feels like a train wreck that continuously plays in her nightmares, but as she drifts off to sleep she wonders if Antonio could solve her repeated nightmares, will he be the solution to her prayers.
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Shaded Heart
FanficGabi Wilson (aka H.E.R.) is fed up with Maxx's shit. She is so tired of the fighting, cheating, and lying. So while at a bar, swallowing her sorrow she decides to give a taste of his own medicine. You won't believe where it takes her.
