Change for the Better

Face Your Fears

I need to get out of here.

I look over at the IV machine and press the power button shutting it off. I take out the IV needle quickly.

It hurt but it's worth it. I get of the bed slowly as I gently put weight in both my feet until I'm standing with my whole weight.

Once I felt like I can make the journey I slowly walk to the door and open it looking around. Meredith wasn't in sight. This was fabulous.

I quickly walk out of my room and I follow the signs that point to the exit. I push open the 2 door and smile as I feel the breeze on my face. Now to start of on a new city. Hopefully a bigger one. I make it maybe 4 steps before I'm spoken to.

"Where are you going?"

I turn around confused and see the suit man leaning against the hospital building. "I- I'm leaving, I was discharged." I spoke quickly. Over the last few years you kinda get used to lying to people. It comes at a second nature.

Suit man let out a small chuckle as she stood up and walked over to me. He kept his distance but was still closer then before. "I highly doubt that. Now that's make this easy on both of us and let's get you back inside to your room."

I shake my head and take a small step back, my heartbeat speeding up. "I'm not going back in there, they want to deliver my baby! It's too early, and I'm not ready!"

With each step I took back, suit man kept taking a step towards me. "Now that is not true. A baby is viable at 24 weeks, which you are at if I heard correctly. A baby is viable even before 24 weeks but the survival rate is 50 percent, your babies survival rate at 24 weeks is 60-70 percent. On the other note I understand how difficult it is to have a baby this young and you may never be ready for a child, but if you do not have your baby delivered today, you are putting you and your child at risk for death. Do you want to be the cause of your child's death?"

I was beyond speechless. I never want to harm my child, it's just to early. "I don't have a place to stay, I have no money, no clothes, no diapers. It's to early I don't have anything... and I'm not giving my baby up!" My legs started to feel weak again, I looked around and I saw I was close to the hospital wall so I leaned against it as I took deep breaths.

Suit man approached me quickly as he had his arms out. He draped an arm around my shoulders and held up upper arm with his other hand "Amelia let go sit on the bench. Keep doing what your doing, deep breath."

I didn't linger in the fact that he knew my name, I was more worried about my child. He slowly started to lead me to the bench. He helped me sit down gently so my legs didn't give out as I sat down.

Once I was down he sat next to me. "I have a sister, her name is Rebekah. She would give up anything and everything in this world so she could have a child, she just is not able to just like many women now struggle to have children. Don't put your child in harms way just because your not ready. If it helps any I will help you through this, if I don't I might not be able to sleep with myself knowing there is a young child struggling....my sister might also kill me if I don't."

When I heard this I laughed a little. "She sounds like someone I would want to know." I sigh as I look down at my stomach as I start to cry. I lift my head and take a deep breath "I'm so scared... the only thing that has kept me clean was this baby...I don't know if I'm strong enough to stay clean once this is over."

"I understand, but I will be there with you until you think your ready to be on your own. Ok?"

I nod as I start to calm down. I can't runaway forever, I need to face my fears or else the fear might win. I look over at suit man as he stands up and offers his hand.

I gently grab his hand as he helps my stand up. He wraps his arm around me again giving me extra stability. "Elijah. My name is Elijah."

I smile as nod as we walk back through the doors. "And I'm Amelia but you already knew that." I sigh as we were almost back to my room. "Will you stay the entire time...even after?" I ask gently hoping not to sound to desperate.

He gave a gentle squeeze to my hand. "Of course, I won't leave unless you tell me to and even then I would come back a few hours later. I told you I won't leave until you are ready to go off on your own and I'm a man of my word."

I smile as he helps me sit down on the bed once again but I don't let go of his hand as it gives me a calming sensation. I frown when he pulls his hand away slowly. "I'm going to see how fast we can get this over with, ok?"

I sighed and nods as I get on the bed fully and lean back as I watch him disappear from the room.

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Date finished: 04/02/24

Word Count: 1000