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Rules 28

Hanni's Point Of View

"Why y'all look like you've seen a ghost?" Seungmin chuckled.

I broke up with the person I love to save her future not knowing that the threath I've been scared of is a lie? There's countless tears we both wasted for a lie? Where's Jay's heart? Where's his conscience? Why'd he do this to me? I can't believe that he is the one who I loved before, this is a different him.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, I saw Minji walking down the stage with a smile on her face. I hurt this girl for a lie.

"Bullshit." I mumbled but they still heard me even Minji, Hyunjin and Haerin who's now sitting across our table looking at me.

"Excuse me." I stood up and walked. But before I could make it to the exit, someone grabbed my arm and dragged me outside the bar. I'm actually hoping that it is Minji but to my disappointment, it is just Danielle with Ryujin and Yuna behind her.

"Hanni, where are you going?"

"Somewhere, I don't know."

"What? You went outside then you are going, cause you don't know?”

"I'm so confused, okay? I'm so damn confused, I don't know what's the truth, I don't know if there's still truth for all of this shit."

I'm trying to hold back my tears, I don't want to cry anymore. This hurts, this hurts cause we are both hurting ourselves because of me believing those lies. This hurts because we were happy back then, then someone barged and destroyed me, Us.

"Shh... Stop crying Han." Ryujin stated, stroking my back to soothe me.

"At least we know that no one will die, no one will fail." Yuna added with a genuine smile plastered on her face.

"Yuna is right Han, let's look at the brighter side don't think too much about negatives. The pain? It will fade in time, time flies so fast right? we wouldn't know it can be healed tomorrow, next week, next week, just don't lose hope and trust." They all suddenly hugged me. Why am I so lucky to have friends like them? They are my treasures.

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"Damn!" I sigh really frustrated with my own self, I am now at the dean's front door trying to knock but has not enough courage to do so. I look dumb here. Lifting my hand and putting it down? I looked like a freakin lucky charm cat.

"Why don't you just knock?" I jumped at Haerin's voice. Oh she's watching my stupidness.

"Are you there that long?" If she is, then that will be extra embarrassing.

She smiled and shook her head. "Nope, I just got here. I saw you like that so here I am, erm.. what are you trying to do by the way?"

I sigh for a hundred and million times. "I just want to talk to the dean about something." She nodded.

"Is that important? Or urgent?”

"Yeah, really important." I'm here to ask the dean about Jay's condition. I want to clarify things. I'm tired of hearing lies and actually trusting and believing it. I felt like I'm 99999.9% idiot and dumb for believing those.

"Then knock, that is important right? Don't be scared, Hanni." So she will just command me to knock and not tell me what to do? What can you expect from Hanni? She's Kang Haerin! She's okay! She's cool!

"You are just gonna look at me?" I asked with annoyance.

"What? I don't even know what you're up to? So how can I help Pham Hanni?"