[Love Hits Hard Volume 2] Deception or Truth?

Ch-1 - Memories

So this all started with my highschool and ended up with my boyfriend's death. But is this really the end of everything?
I have stopped going for therapies because I'm tired of them. They are never gonna work on me. We shifted from New York to San Francisco. I am not in contact with anyone from my old life. This is my last year in college. I am soon going to be a graduate. I hate being socialize. I haven't made any new friends. I miss Daphne and Ari a lot. But we are not in contact and thinking about them makes me remember each and every incident that took place in my past life. I just hope that they all are in their best condition. I have started writing about my day in 'My Life'. It's like my daily routine. I am still not able to sleep properly. I am still haunted by those memories. Every night in my dreams, I see him, I feel him. It's like my room is on fire and I cannot breathe anymore. I know it's scary but also lovely at the same time. It's like my life is teaching me some kind of lesson. I tried to run from my memories, leaving everything back there in New York but all this is useless because I forgot that some memories can never fade. Those memories will always remain with me till my journey inside a coffin.
Every day no matter wherever I am, I feel like my body is in that place but I am somewhere else trying to find him, trying to find a place where I could live with him.
My mom is my biggest supporter. She always says that everyone have a happily ever after and you will also get it. It's just God is taking some kind of test and you have to prove yourself worthy for a happy life.