Tried really hard to type this up so that I could have updated 2 chappies in 2 day but you know that didn't happen. I really do love writing for all my readers and future readers. This book so far has been a blast to write, even if I have been a horrible Author and haven't updated frequently enough so I am trying to make up for it. I came up with how to plot this chapter while I was sitting at the dining room table after dinner and I just thought of it because I was thinking about the book. The computer wouldn't turn on so I couldn't type this automatically so I got really frustrated. I grabbed a napkin and started writing this chapter on the napkin so yeah. Really Really excited for this chapter. <3
Enjoy!!
Jake POV
I wake up with a warm sensation in my chest. Rose was sleeping peacefully all tangled up in me. I stared down at her and remembered that wonderful kiss that we shared last night. I wonder why she didn't let me make out with her some more. Not that, that is all I want from her it's just, I wasn't expecting her to just stop. Maybe she was overthinking again. Kind of like I am now. She does that a lot and she probably doesn't even realize that she is.
I stare at her again but this time taking in just how beautiful she is. I take in every feature that she supports. Her long brown hair, that is oh so soft, her full pink lips, her short thin body. She was so small when I held her like that. Nothing in this world could make me any happier than being here right now. I feel her move around a little bit but then she stills. I check the clock and see that it is like 3 A.M. I probably should go back to sleep I am going to have one heck of a time trying to explain to my parents why I was out so late. I slowly drift off to sleep.
I wake once more to Rose's horrific screaming and crying. I look at her in the eyes and see that her eyes are all red and puffy like she had either just cried really hard or she just cried for a really long time.
"What's wrong Rose? Are you okay?" She bursts into tears once more.
"It's my fault! It's... all my fault. She's gone because of me! I am horrible! I shouldn't be here. It should have been me! She's gone!" Rose screams.
"Shhhh, it's alright... you're okay, everything is okay. I'm right here you can talk to me if you need to. I will always be here for you." I continue to whisper sweet nothings into her ear as she cried and cried into my shirt.
She stopped crying and looked at me. "It really is my fault."
"What's your fault?" I asked in a hushed tone to not frighten her.
"My sister... she's... she's gone. Never coming back and it's all my fault. I killed her it is all my fault. Everyone says it is. I used to deny it but I know it's true. I made her kill herself it's my entire fault! I shouldn't be here! I'm not wanted here, no one wants me here!" I almost broke down in tears because I wanted her here. But I need to stay strong for her.
"It isn't your fault. Baby girl, you didn't make her kill herself. It's alright I am here." She broke down in tears once again.
I waited until I knew she was asleep to fall back asleep. I held her close to me as I drifted away into the nothingness of my dreams.
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I woke up to Rose still laying on me but she was tracing her fingers over one of my bruises and it actually didn't hurt. It felt really good. She would occasionally rake her fingers over my abdomen. I decided to make my being awake aware.
"Good morning, Beautiful." I say to her.
She doesn't even seem startled. She just keeps on tracing patterns. I bet she is in deep thought or something.
