tell the world that i love you (FreenBecky )

The Truth

'The atmosphere feels weird today' Becky thought as she arrived at the airport with their team. 

She didn't see Freen this morning. They supposedly have to come to the airport together, but Lin said that Freen got something to do. Becky didn't asked more. After last night event, Becky comforted herself that it's okay. Everything will be alright. That she should trust Freen, and their friendship will be alright. No matter how much she has to suffer in the future, it is okay as long as Freen happy with her choice.

She and her team were waiting for the time to depart at the vip room. Becky sat on the sofa and listened to music. She was listening to If you love her by Forest Blakk.

"so if you're the one she lets in, take it,
if she gives you her heart
don't you break it"

Beca sang the words meaningfully. She wants to be someone that Freen can lean on. Everyday she was hoping that Freen will see that she loves her unconditionally and her love are more than just friends. But she already lost without competing. Freen loves Seng. She started to tear up again.

"Don't you dare cry Becky." She said to herself.

But regardless of the issue, Becky will always support Freen no matter what the situation. She will be the safe place for Freen.

Becky looked at her phone if Freen text her. She sighed.

"Where are you PFreen." She said.

"Freen." P Nam said. Becky quickly stood up and she saw that Freen making her way towards them.

Becky frowned. 'Why Freen look like she's sick?'

Without thinking too much, Becky walked to Freen and  touched  her hand softly. Freen turned around and looked at Becky. Freen's face certainly paled.

"PFreen?" "Are you okay?." Freen tried not to cry or show any emotion. But she know she can't. Becky always know if something happened to her. 

"I-" Freen eyes already tear up. She can't hide it anymore. She quickly took Becky's hand and the two of them went to the toilet.

"PFreen." Becky hugged Freen when Freen started to cry.

"I've been blackmail by someone." Becky shocked. She wiped Freen's tears. 

'I didn't know this.'

"When? What happened actually?" Becky asked although she kind of felt slighted because Freen didn't tell her earlier.

"Two weeks ago, there's someone sent me a video of me-" Freen stuttered. She doesn't know if Becky will get upset if she know that Seng and her kissed. But Becky nodded her head, signaling Freen that it was okay.

"I was kissing someone in my house." Hearing that confession, she felt like someone slapped her in the face.

'Why does it hurt, I knew about this, but why it still feel hurt hearing all of this from her.'
Becky try not to show that she shocked.

"They blackmail us, if we don't give certain amount of money, they will post it online."

"How in the world that crazy people went to your house."

"I- I don't know, and I don't know what to do right now Becky." Freen cried. Becky just sighed and hugged Freen tightly.

"I'm here PFreen. We can go through this together."

"About that someone, do you like a couple or what?"

"Do you like I mean do you love him?" Becky asked curiously, Her heart beating fast. She knew the answer but her heart still can't accept the fact that Freen had someone.

"I don't know Becky. My feelings right now are complicated. I don't know the terms of having feelings for someone like that. I was just having fun with him, he made me laughed so much and it made me forget this cruel world for a second. " Becky made a small smile.

'I thought I was the one who always manage to put a smile on your face.' Becky smiled bitterly. 

"So what's going to happen now?"

"The agency think it will be the best if we made a statement and we already did this morning." That's why she's late.

"Why didn't you tell me before?" Becky asked again. Her voice were soft.  Wondering why Freen keeping a secret from her. 

"I-I was I don't know Bec, it seems not right to tell you about him, because I'm not sure what he was for me."

"You know I don't care, right? I would always be happy for you. We're sisters, right?"  She stared at Freen's eyes longingly. Freen is someone she adored so much. Someone that she loves so much. No matter the timeline. Every minute she had in her life, she knew she will always fall in love for her. Even though at the end, she must let the feelings go. 

She smiled, hiding the pain that were burning her heart.

"PFreen, I'm always here with you, no matter how hard the world crushing you or me, just remember you have me, and sometimes it's enough." 

Becky stroked Freen's face gently.

"Don't be afraid, I am always here." Becky said. Freen cried again. To be honest she was scared that she might let down her fans and agency which she already did.  

She doesn't want to think about this for now.

"Let's go, hmm?" Becky looked at the time. It almost time to depart.  Freen nodded and hugged Becky for the last time. Becky comforted her.

"You're okay, okay?"

"You have me, and right now that is all that matter." Becky smiled cheerfully.

'Yes, I have her. That's all that matter.' Freen smiled. 

The truth is, Freen doesn't have any romantic feelings for Seng. It was all just for fun. They understand each other and respect each other. They always hang out and did something fun. They never involved in having any romantic feelings. All they did were trying to forget about the world where they don't have any privacy anymore. They shared and gossiping about each other. But there's something that Freen hide from everyone. Her feelings.