Adopted by Lady Gaga

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"Samantha! Come down for breakfast!"
i groaned and pulled the covers over my head
"Sam!"
a few minutes later i heard footsteps coming up the stairs
"i know you can hear me" she said standing at my doorway
i turned over with my face against my pillow "five more minutes" i muffled against the pillow
"no get up"
"ugh"
"Samantha"
"Gaga"
"wake up"
"i am awake"
"i mean get out of bed"
"i'll pass"
"Samantha"
"gaga"
"don't start this again"
"pleaseeee" i whined "just five more minutes"
"cmon, i made breakfast"
"more of a reason so stay in bed" i said
"Samantha"
"Ga-"
"don't you dare" she said cutting me off
"Gaga" i said looking at her, smirking
she rolled her eyes "I'm serious, cmon"
"ugh, fine" i said throwing my covers off of me "but let me shower and stuff"
"take your time" she said walking out of my room shutting the door behind her
~
after my shower i slipped on a pair of skinny jeans and a band tee. once i was finished i made my way downstairs.

"done" i said meeting gaga in the kitchen.
"good" she said sliding me a bowl of cereal
"do i have toooooo?" i whined
"you promised" she said sitting down
i sighed pulling back a chair and sitting down.
i starred down at the bowl of cereal
"the cereal wont kill you" she promised
"and what if it does? what if you like poisoned it or something? huh?"
gaga rolled her eyes
"eat." she said simply
i sighed shoving a spoon full of cereal into my mouth
once I swallowed gaga smiled at me
"see, it didnt kill you"
~
"so... i was wondering if you wanted to meet your family?" gaga said after a moment of silence
"uh, sure" i said quickly, immediately looking down at my food attempting to eat it again
"samantha"
"hm?" i asked still looking at my cereal
"look at me, please"
slowly, i looked up meeting her gaze
"what's wrong?" she asked
"nothing" i mumbled trying to convince myself
"your bad at lying. C'mon, tell me. we talked about you being able to talk to me, let me in."
i looked at her "it's nothing, really."
"C'mon" she said giving me one of those puppy dog eyes i couldn't say 'no' too.
"okay, okay, fine." i said giving in "what if your family doesnt like me? i'm not a likeable person" i said chewing on my bottom lip nervously
"look i know there gonna love you, i promise. So, what else?" she asked rasing an eyebrow
"what?"
"i know thats not it"

fuck. how does she even know there's more?

i looked down at my hands and fiddled with my fingers
"i'm afraid i'll get attached" I said quietly
"why?" she asked

i looked back up at her and she had a hurt expression, i felt guilty but i was only being honest

"because look at what you've already done to me, i've only been with you for a day, and you already know some of my secrets. what if i become too much for you to handle?"

"samantha, i've told you countless times, i'm not leaving you. no matter what, i'm gonna be here, you're stuck with me"

i let a few tears escape my eyes, it was sinking in. she actually cares about me.

i sat quietly fiddling with my fingers.
"now, what else is going on?"
"huh?" i said looking back up at her
"there's something else your not telling me, what is it?" she asked with pleading eyes
i sighed looking down
"you said "some secrets" samantha" she said

shit. shit. shit.

"uh.. i..uh" I stuttered nervously
"come here" she said getting up and heading towards the living room

hesitatly i got up and followed

she sat down and patted the spot next to her
"okay" she started "what else is going on?"
i looked down fiddling with my fingers.
i didnt know what to tell her, or how to tell her.
"samantha"
"hm?" i asked still looking down
"c'mon, let me in, please" she said taking ahold of my hands
i look up at her but i still don't say anything
she looked at me concerned, her eyes widened as if something inside her clicked, she let out a shaky gasp
"pull up your sleeves"
"no" i said sharply standing up from the couch taking a few steps back
"samantha, now" she demanded
"n-no, please" I pleaded
her face softened and she stood up hesitatly walking towards me. she grabbed my hand pulling me back to sit down.
she rubbed circles over my back soothingly.
"can i?" she asked pointing at my sleeve
hesitatly i nodded. she slowly picked up my sleeve and let out a loud gasp
tears started streaming down my face.
i'm tired of fighting, maybe i do need help.
i felt salty tears hit my wrist, i looked down and noticed it was gaga's and not mine.
"sam, these are deep, really deep."
i tried to pull my arm back but she had a strong grip.
"don't" she wanred
"p-please" i said still trying to pull away
"why?"
"there embarrassing"
"no there not, there beautiful, they show how strong you are"
i chucked "i'm not strong, clearly i'm weak for doing it"
she sighed leaning down planting a kiss on my cuts
"I don't want you to do this anymore, it hurts me"
i felt my heart drop.
"why'd you have to do that?" i said with more tears streaming down my face
"beacause it hurts that you do this to yourself. you're worth so much more than what you think you are. i love you so much and I don't care how long it takes i'm gonna help you get better"
at this point i was sobbing.
gaga pulled me onto her lap, stroking my hair soothingly.
"i love you" she repeated as she rocked me softly