Freezing Moon

The Past Stays Dead

I looked at him saliva dripping from my lips, and I don't even know if it's mine or his. My eyes grew wide and I started breathing heavier and heavier, what just happened? " I'm sorry," Dead said remorsefully gripping on the bedsheets for a second then got up and walked out of the room and closed the door. Dead. It's not your fault....nothing was don't be sad. I put on a pair of pajamas and slippers and creeped down the stairs in search for Dead. When I saw him he was sitting on the couch everyone was mad as fuck and bombarding him with countless questions. I went down and suddenly all of the commotion stopped," can you guys just stop already! He's clearly a little dazed right now, how about you just let him chill," I defended Dead standing in front of him. " Damn if I did not know any better I'd swear that you are in love with Pelle," Hellhammer sneered. I blushed slightly at that, was I in love with him? Better yet was he in love with me? Tons of thoughts raced a million miles per mile in my head but all I managed was a solemn," no, why would I be in love with him, barely even know him." My grew cold and my voice unreadable. " Fair enough," he brushed it off. As soon as the words can,e out of his mouth I did not give him or the others a chance to scold Dead and motioned with my finger for him to come back upstairs and to our room. As soon as he walked in I closed the door almost silently and sat down on the bed by Dead resting my head on his shoulder. I hugged and he wrapped his arms around me, I don't know if you would really call it a big but it was comforting. I felt a tear come from his eyes fall on to my face, making me look up at him," what's wrong," I asked. " I fucked it up, I FUCKED IT UP....this just like....no no no no NO NO, no," Dead was screaming. He wasn't talking words really so I just put an arm around him and hugged him tight as physically possible. He did not say a single word he just sat there tears streaming down his beautiful pale face, I wiped them away. " Look Dead I don't know what you are talking about and you don't have to tell me, but I just want you to know that I will be here for you," I rubbed his back in circular motions. I then rushed down stairs then bolted back up stairs and to the room returning with a coffee for Dead placing it in his lap being careful because it was still quite hot and definitely did not want to burn him, he was so precious. He sipped on his coffee glancing around the room casually. I watched suavely and that's when it hit me, I'm in love with him- I want to but it's obviously way to early for that, obviously. But, I need to let him know that I do care about him, I got it! Tomorrow I'll see if Dead wants to do something together just the two of us, spend some quality time together and as long as my gut feeling is right I'll ask him out and he will say yes and he'll be mine and I'll be his. It makes me indescribably sad I just want to make him smile and laugh more like I know he can. I hope going out tomorrow will make him happy; I directed my attention back to the present and looked over at a yawning Dead. " Hey, see you are getting sleepy why don't we call it a night and get some shut eye, I've got plans tomorrow," I giggled pushing him on the bed and both on a separate pillow, he can't just sleep on the floor forever poor thing! " What kind of plans," he inquired put covers over his body. " Oh trust me you'll see tomorrow, I am not leaving you out of this one, Dead~," I snickered while biting my fingernail. " Oh well...damn, okay," he laughed a little before blowing the candle out and telling me goodnight after placing a kiss on the back of my neck.