I'm Not For You

Baby?...

The next morning

- Baby... - Engfa was sitting in an Indian position on the bed where Charlotte slept peacefully, all stretched and on her side with her stomach looking at the brunette. That position had favored Engfa to have the redhead's belly at a glance away. In fact, as soon as the brunette got up the first thing she did was look at Charlotte's belly, well maybe the second thing she did was that, because having the redhead naked next to her, other things had entertained her vision for more than a few seconds. But after looking at her girl for several minutes, she covered her with the sheet so as not to be tempted and then she got up, put on her boxers and her sports top and went back to bed to sit down and face her son or daughter

- Baby? - she called in whispers trying not to wake up her girlfriend

- Hello baby - she greeted waving her hand towards the redhead's belly once she thought she had woken up the baby with her call

- I... I’m your mama... - she touched her chest

- I wanted to ask you... you deserve that... that I apologize for having reacted like that as soon as I knew about your existence - it was the only one who was missing to apologize

-I did it because I was afraid and... and... according to Jane I'm a coward but not anymore,- she assured, shaking her head.

-Now... now... now I'm going to be the best mom in the world... well, the second best in the world because I'm... I'm sure Mommy is going to be the best,- she told her baby confidently and without realizing that there was a redhead who pretended to be asleep, but who was very attentive to what the brunette was saying. After the apologies, Engfa sighed deeply and resting her elbows on each of her legs, looked intensely at the stomach. She sighed again.

-Baby... baby, did you fall asleep?- Engfa sighed. -Hello, baby...Sorry for waking you up is that... I did it because... because... I wanted to tell you that... it's the last thing I tell you and let you sleep, I wanted to tell you that I love you with all my heart and with all my soul and that... that... that if you get to have a... a... - she wasn't sure if she could say that word or not to a baby who hadn't been born yet

– ... Well, if you're born like me, we're not going to abandon you, we're not going to love you less, or anything... or anything like that - she shook her head

-We're going... we're going to love you a lot, a lot more and I... and I... and your mommy too and your sister Beth we're going to.... we're going to protect and take care of you and love you a lot, a lot and nothing will ever happen to you - Charlotte knew that the brunette was afraid that the same things would happen to her son that she had experienced

– Also if... if... you are born with a... with a...like me, it's not so bad because... because... - the brunette got even closer to the belly

- ... the girls seem to like it - she whispered to her baby in secret. Whisper that made Charlotte have to squeeze her lips stronger than ever to endure her laughter. Engfa seemed to notice that the other girl's body was moving and she quickly looked at her girlfriend's face, but her eyes were closed so she concentrated again on the girl's stomach, resting her elbows on her knees and her face on her hands

- It's only missing... - she counted on her fingers - there are only eight months or so to see you - someone was anxious

– I wish... I wish... When I see you for the first time, I'm going to give you a lot but lots of kisses and... and... I'm not going to be able to stop looking at you and taking care of you and... and... I'm going to give you everything you want and we're going to draw the walls of the house together - she added making Charlotte's smile even bigger