if apples fall from the tree
does that mean im bruised?
do you love me?
I feel like I am being used
I dont face reality, I just walk away
if you had talked for five more minutes
would you have stayed?
I hope im not being jealous
of the perfect life you built
im jealous of how you built it without me
I would have layed bricks and done the hard work
I tried for so long
it shouldnt hurt
issues from you that flood into my current life
flashfoward images to you with your perfect wife
ive created a new version of you
one that doesnt hate the way I talk, or what I say
loves me anyways
dispite my anger, that comes from you
and all of my other issues
I cant say I hate you
we bend and break
you stab my back
a world of torture
A painful past
I wosh I knew more when I was younger
maybe then I would have turned out okay
you make me feel forgotten
every single day
I curse the land I live on
just because you own it
theyres money of mine hidden in your wallet
take a guess at how many nights
sleepless over what I could have had
years of saying he's not that bad
I defended you, I expect you to
to show up
