Sunflower

Chapter 28

"Open the fucking door, Penelope we know you're in there" Andrea pounds on my front door, my glossy eyes trying to focus on the guy in front of me. It's been two? Three? Maybe? Weeks since my birthday and since the day I really fucked Theo over for real in an attempt to save him from me. I refuse to be the reason Theo's golden heart is destroyed, except I know how hypocritical that sounds considering that's exactly what I did that day. The guy pulls my dress over my head before grabbing my ass roughly, except it's not nearly as satisfying as it was with Theo. He moves slightly to put on a condom before sliding into me and thrusting from underneath in a way that can only be good for him, there's no way girls enjoy this

The girls continue to pound on the door and I ignore them until this guy is done, then I push him to get dressed, throw on my robe and walk him to the door where he awkwardly side steps the girls so he can leave "wow, that's got to be a record. How long did he last here? Ten minutes?" Kelsie asks pushing her way in "are you high?" Andrea asks grabbing my face, I slap her hand away "what is it? Pills?" She asks "I would like a DNA test, you're way too young to be my mother" I say while shutting the door and following them to the kitchen, Kelsie pours a glass of orange juice before handing it to me clearly wanting to sober me up for whatever conversation we are about to have. So I comply, we sit in silence until I am sober enough to talk seriously

"Anything you want to tell us?" Kelsie asks "no" I say "no point lying, Theo spilled the beans about the two of you" Andrea says clearly pissed off "we fucked" I reply without looking at her "You fucked?" Kelsie asks surprised at my choice of words when she knows damn well I liked him more than that "look at me, Penelope" Andrea says, I look at her and the pain in my eyes must be enough to get her anger to subside "you liked him" Andrea says "barely" I lie trying to convince myself "why won't you just tell us the truth?" Kelsie asks "because telling you what happened those two weeks just make it more real, it makes my fuck up bigger, it makes my guilt worse" I say my voice cracking. I stand up from the stool and grab my spare bottle of whiskey and pour us all a drink, I down mine "What happened?" Andrea asks "you were right Andrea, for being so damn scared of me getting involved with your brother. I broke his fucking heart like you thought I would" I reply

Her jaw drops slightly, I drop my head and sigh "I'm sorry I shouldn't have said that" I whisper "this is why you've been so weird lately? Because of what I said?" Andrea asks "I've been so weird because you're right, that's exactly what I did. Theo and I had an amazing time together and then I freaked out because I didn't want you finding out that I betrayed you, i freaked out because things were getting serious and then I laid out some dumb shit on him. When I saw him at my birthday I realised just how bad I was for him" I snap "he said you guys didn't talk that day" Andrea says, I pour myself another drink "he tried, I lied out of my ass to get him to leave before I made more damage than he needs to deal with" I reply "That makes sense" Andrea says "what does?" I ask "Theo hasn't left the house in three weeks for anything but work, he won't talk to me, he doesn't have girls over either, apparently not even Ty has heard from him" Andrea says

My heart breaks in my chest at the thought of Theo in this state, did I really do more harm than good when all I wanted was to protect him from me?

"To lighten the mood slightly, I am very curious and very gay so I just have to ask. Was he that good?" Kelsie asks, I look at her for a few seconds "yes" I reply "how good?" She asks, there's never been secrets between the three of us until Theo. They knew everything about everything "mind blowing, legs shaking can't get enough even though I physically can't handle it anymore good" I reply "happy for you but please don't discuss that in front of me, he's my brother and it's disturbing" Andrea adds, my lip twitches slightly a smile threatening to appear "was he big? Oh was he rough? how's the head?" Kelsie keeps asking "huge, yes and best I've ever ever had" I reply, Andrea looks extremely disturbed but she doesn't protest anymore, she looks somewhat relieved that I'm finally talking without being on the verge of tears

"Places you've had sex?"

"The entire house, except for Andy's room and his car"

Andrea:
"Kitchen island?"

Me:
"Actually he gave me head for the first time there"

Andrea:
"Disgusting it's where I eat everyday"

Me:
"Andy don't pretend I didn't catch you and Alex going at it on the same place"

Andrea:
"Yeah well Alex isn't your brother"

Kelsie:
"Fair point, craziest thing you've ever done?"

Me:
"Blowjob while he drove"

Andrea:
"Can we please not do this?"

Andrea looks even more disturbed than she did two minutes ago "you should go to him" Andrea continues but I shake my head "Andrea I've fucked it up, it's over. Theo's better off forgetting all about me and moving on with a girl who can actually give him what he needs" I reply "honey, that's you" Andrea replies honestly but I sigh "she's right. I mean I've never seen Theo smile as much as he did those two weeks, Nellie, and I've never seen you happier either. You stopped smoking, you were barely drinking even when we were out" Kelsie says, they simultaneously check their phones and groan "evening shifts?" I ask and they nod "I'll be fine go"

"Promise you'll at least think about it, I was wrong for thinking about you that way. By what Kelsie says, you did Theo good"

"I'll think about it"

They hug me and leave

I sit outside in the balcony with a glass of whiskey watching the sun setting in the horizon having flashbacks of the two weeks I've spent with Theo

Flashback

"Never thought I would be this excited to see a girl wearing my shirt" Theo says resting either hands on the crook of my neck and smiling down at me in a way I've never seen before, it's not flirty or sexual it's just honest and casual, I can't help but match it "you look beautiful" he says tucking a strand of hair behind my ear, I look into his eyes and my heart skips a beat

In that moment I know there's nowhere else I would rather be

Nobody else I would want to be this intimate with

Our eye contacts has been one of the things I've favoured most about us, I'm not one for eye contacts they usually make me feel widely uncomfortable but not Theo. No I feel comfort and peace and hot at the same time. It's as if peace and war clashed together to make whatever it is we have here

Theo breaks contact to turn up the music and air guitar to Metallica the way he always does, it's almost like he can't help it. I laugh wholeheartedly at him before finally joining

Our voices bind together as we shout the lyrics to the songs while dancing around his room without a care in the world; it's something we had grown fond of whenever we had a long day and needed to just let go