Chance On Me

Chapter Four

Wesley Gray

Mom says we will have dinner tonight together. As a family. We're going out to eat, somewhere nice. That the boys will be there. She asked if that was okay. I told her I think that they like me. I'm not good with social cues but Troy flat out said it.

She said if i'm interested that's fine. Some people like multiple partners, I'm young. If it feels right then that's okay. Will won't be upset. But if I don't want it? I need to set a clear boundary and tell them. But I don't know what I want.

I didn't know this would be an option. And if I do want it, what am I wanting? More cuddles? Hook ups? I've never hooked up with anyone in my life, let alone three different guys. And how does that work? All of us? But of course, I can't get the words out to tell mom.

"Are they making you uncomfortable?" she asks, sipping her coffee. "Because you can tell us, and Will, will put a stop to it"

"No..I don't think.." but that's all I can get out, but she nods.

"You're confused" she leans back against the counter. We're sitting in the kitchen, before her shift. She has a short one today. "You know, you could tell them your thoughts.I'm sure they'd clear it all up for you. They Are very blunt boys. Or ask Jase. You'll be with him all day" mom says, and i want to thank her. Tell her I'm going to try to do that. But the words don't come out.

All I can do is nod. Mom smiles, kisses my head and says goodbye before heading to her shift.

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I'm sitting on my bed, checking my socials on my phone when Jase finally appears. It's one now, and he looks like he just got up.

"Hey" he murmurs, coming into my room. He has on sweats, and no shirt. He has a six pack, which is intimidating. I have a pouch of fat on my stomach. I don't work out, and I don't see myself doing that anytime soon.

"Hi" my voice sounds like someone else's.

"Cece texted, said you might want to talk about what Troy said?" he slumped on my bed, right beside me. "You can, if you want. I don't have to tell anyone if you don't want me too. We do like an open line of communication. But if it's not harming yourself I can keep a secret '' his eye drops down to a wink and I feel butterflies erupt in my stomach.

"Do you guys always... want this?" my brows furrow, the words slipping free.

"What is 'this'?"

"I really don't know," I admit, and Jase nods, leaning back against the headboard. This is where he tells me he thinks I'm a freak. Because I don't understand simple things.

"We want a relationship. Cuddles, sex, dates, fights. All that shit. Obviously certain things will take time. We will build up to those things. Get to know each other better. But we have never done that- wanted that with anyone before."

"Do you guys have sex?" the words are just flowing out of my mouth now. My face heats, I swear it's on fire. Fuck did i say to much? I don't-

"No" he cuts off my thoughts, crossing his arms. "We won't either. We're not interested in each other. We're interested in you."

"So you want to have sex with me?" my face must look funny, because Jase laughs.

"Yes, we do"

"At the same time?"

"No- i don't think that works well. But we'd take turns, I think. Watch. But we have never done this, so we'd have to feel it out"

"Feel it out?"