Chance On Me

Chapter Eighteen

Wesley Gray

It's after dinner time now, and I haven't seen Troy since he left this morning. I was sad at first, really really sad. But now I'm just angry.

I made Jase drive me back home, because im not staying at that fucking pack house when he just ditched me all day. After what we did? He just ignored me.

So, now I'm in the bath, relaxing. My body is sore, very sore and I'm tired. I wanted space, so Jase and Zane are off doing stuff in their own rooms. I stay in the bath until it's cold, then I take a hot shower, and wash all the filth away.

Once I'm dressed in comfy clothes, Jase's hoodie and Zane's sweats I climb into bed. I scroll on my phone for a while, until there's a knock on the door.

Jase's head pops in, and a small smile tugs at my lips. "Can we come cuddle, or do you want more space?"

I nod, patting the bed beside me. Jase comes in, wearing only sweats. Zane is behind him in similar clothes to me. He pulls off his hoodie before climbing into bed though.

"Have you talked to him?" my voice comes out quiet, and weak. I hate it.

"No" Zane gives a sad smile. "I called, but he didn't answer"

"I texted him, and Uncle Will did too" Jase lays down, pulling me with him. I lay on his chest, and Zane scoots in behind me. His leg nudges between my thighs, nuzzling into Jase. Jase's arm is around Zane too, which I find even more comforting.

"We can feel you baby. We know it's hurting you. But i want you to know, that if we know, so does Troy" Jase's voice is soft, and gentle. "I don't know what's happening, but he knows you're in pain"

"And he's ignoring it" I say the words he doesn't want too, and I feel another sting. Another crack. I gave myself to him, and now he's with some girl?

He should be here, with us. But he's choosing someone else.

Zane moves, sitting on his elbow, looking down at me. "I'm sorry love. I really don't know what is happening" he runs his fingers through my blond locks, pushing them away from my face. "But we're here, and we won't leave you" he leans down, kissing my lips.

It starts out gentle, a small caress. Then his tongue is slipping into my mouth, stroking against mine.

A small whine pulls from me, and lips start sucking on my neck. Over my sensitive marks. Moaning, I shift so I'm closer to Zane, who's hand is sliding down my chest.

Blood soars, going to my groin. My body feels like it's buzzing, and my skin is on fire. Teeth sink into my skin, making a loud gasp come from me. Zane shoves his tongue deeper into my mouth, fucking me with it.

His hand cups my cock, rubbing me over my pants. Jase's hand slides behind me, cupping my ass. It's so much, and feels so good.

But we're missing a part of us, and we can all feel it. So as hot as we get, it doesn't go further than kissing and groping. '

And by the end of the night, I'm needy and sad. Heart broken. Because i fall asleep without a part of me.

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I wake up face down into the bed, legs tangled and arms around me. The boys have been cuddling more, and touchy more. They don't interact sexually or romantically, but I think there's something building there too.

Pushing up, I move around until I'm sitting in the middle of the bed. The door opens, and Troy slides in. His eyes meet mine, and my whole body stiffens. He's in the same clothes he left in, and he looks like he's been through it.

Or fucked.

That sends a heart wrenching break through my heart, but I swallow it down. "Sweetheart" his voice is hoarse, and I shake my head.

"I don't want you here" my voice is quiet, but he hears me.

"We need to talk, i need to talk to you" he steps forward, and i'm chucking pillows at him.

"Get out" my voice is more stern, and it wakes the boys up.

"Wesley-"

"If he wants you out, you leave Troy" Jase rasps, running his fingers through his messy hair.

"I deserve a chance to explain" his voice is stern, leaving no room for argument. But Zane does anyway.

"You don't deserve shit after what you did" he shakes his head "He'll talk to you when he's ready"

Troy looks at me, letting out a deep breath. "I just needed time to think about things. I was alone, at a cabin we own. I wasn't with anyone" he's words are true. I can feel it in my heart. In my soul.

"So you left me after taking my virginity, to be alone? You. Left. Me" my words start strong, but end up wavering.

"I'm sorry sweetheart-"

"I need some space. We can talk later. Right now, I don't want to."

Troy looks at his brothers, and then his shoulders slump. He nods, and turns. And leaves.

I lay back down, pulling the blanket over my head, curling into a ball. The boys are surrounding me instantly, holding me. Being here for me. Zane rubs my back, and Jase twirls my hair around his finger.

I thought this whole mating thing was important. I thought it meant something. But it feels like it means nothing now. It feels empty and sad. It feels a lot like heartbreak. Because I gave myself to him, and he tossed me to the curb.

He needed time? What about me? He knew this life was coming for him. He knew he had a mate, and was meant to be with someone. I had no idea about any of this. I'm handling it. I took it on, and put on my best face.

A sob works its way past my lips, and my whole body shakes. Jase shushes me, whispering sweet words as Zane holds me tight, and close to his body.

They said they could feel me. But I don't think they know, I can feel them too. I can feel Jase's anger, and sadness. I can feel Zane's madness.

I can feel Troy's regret. And it feels a lot like my heart break. But he did this, he chose to leave me for the day.

"It's gonna be okay baby" Jase murmurs, brushing my hair back. He wipes the tears on my checks away, and cups my jaw. He kisses away my tears. Zane's body is molded to mine. His scent is surrounding me, taking over me.

I wipe my tears away, and take some deep breaths. Anxiety is tightening its hold on me, and my thoughts are taking over. That I was a mistake. To him. That I will be a mistake to them all. I'm not enough.

I wasn't enough for him to stay.

And that hurts. It hits deep, as another wave of sadness hits me. I wasn't enough for someone who is meant to be my soulmate.

But that's not fair, because I was enough for Jase and Zane. Will I ever be enough for Troy?

The boys must feel me, because Zane is turning me towards him, and he kisses my head. "You're perfect love. He's an idiot, he will fix it though. Because you deserve perfect and you'll get it" 

A/N

Ughh Troy really fucked up. Poor baby thinks somethings wrong with him. What do you think about the brothers getting closer? How do we feel about Troy's fuck up?