are we still friends? ❥ (itsfunneh) yandere high x reader

22. visitors

"hey"

"hi"

there, funneh sat in front of me. her face was stoic, and her voice monotonous. she avoided any kind of eye contact. i wasn't able to tell if she was ashamed of her actions or unamused with the fact that i was the first one to visit her today.

i contemplated even coming here in the first place. i was attached despite everything that's happened. everything she did. everything she was going to do. i attempted to keep a calm composure, but as soon as i sat down, i could feel my palms start to sweat. everything i had wanted to say had vanished into the abyss in which consumed my thoughts.

"how're you feeling?" i asked.

she took a quick glance at my face, but quickly averted her gaze when she noticed i had been looking at her the entire time.

"cut the shit."

"funneh." i reached to grab her hand,

"no!" she yelled, her voice pierced through my ears, the high pitched scream could have broken a glass vase if it were present. i could hear the violent sound of chains rustling caused by her sudden movements.

i looked at her in shock, my lip quivered and my hands clenched, ready for any kind of aggressive behavior.

my heart sank. is this what my life is now? is this how she chose to go by hers? why? why, why, why, why,

"why."

she looked at me in disbelief, almost as if my question had offended her.

"why? i went through all of this and you have the fucking audacity to ask why? do you think that just because you have two guys, who are ready to sacrifice their LIFE for you, you can go using them for your own entertainment? they're real people with real lives. pick a fucking guy y/n."

her words were laced with anger, jealousy, resentment and my name was poisoned with the venom in which she spoke. however, she was right. i couldn't just continue to lead them on. they're my friends. my best friends.

i didn't want to admit it to myself. but i had been using them for my entertainment. i was excited that my life had finally had a bit of meaning. i loved the fact that i had people who would go to many lengths for me. but i couldn't imagine how this made funneh feel. her feelings for alec were shattered at every moment we had.

"i'm sorry." i put my head down on the table, unable to look her in the eyes; at her face. so this was my fault.

funneh's eyes softened when she was finally able to look up at you.
a small puddle formed on the table where you cried. you wiped the tears that streamed down your face and sniffled.

"i didn't notice the person i had become. and i'm sorry i didn't see how this affected everyone else. how this

affected you."

i tried to hold back my tears, as my croaked words made their way into funneh's ears.
"i'm sorry funneh." i rubbed my eyes, trying to adjust my vision.

funneh and i sat in the uneasiness of our silence for a few minutes. thinking about each others words. thinking about how things ended like this.

i stood up, glanced at her once more, and without a word, walked out of the room.

waiting for you, was alec. his ears perked when he heard the click of the doorknob, and he instantly got up on his feet. he had been waiting for you outside the door the moment you went in, however, this was something you were unaware of. and he'd like for it to stay that way.