It's bin almost a year since Billie wrote the song for Barbie and it's bin everywhere I'm absolutely in love with the song and so is the entire world, Billie also really likes it cuz that song is how she felt at the time.
She got into therapy again but this time she's doing it online cuz she doesn't want anything to happen like last time. She's bin doing much better.
She's starting to find her happiness again, her therapist said it wasn't healthy for her to only be happy when she's around me so she's bin going out with friends more often which is really good, It's nice to watch her have fun not only with me but without, it gives me peace that she's ok when I'm not with her.
The night she..yk, after that she was around me 24/7 for almost 2 moths. I honestly didn't mind it, I actually preferred when she was around me cuz I was able to pick up if she was off as soon as possible. Her therapist said she did that as a trama response from when I was sick but instead it was her as the 'sick' one Is how Billie explained it to me.
Those two months where very scary, either me or fin had to be with her at all times because she got in her head very quickly and very aggressively, she said she hasn't felt like that since she was 16 and it was scary that's why she wanted us around her, to distract her.
She also had a few close calls but either one of us where able to stop her in time, so she's bin clean for 10 almost 11 months. I had to lock everything up. It gave me flashbacks to when my step dad had to lock everything up when I got bad.
I knew she had enough self control to not do anything but her mom wanted me to, it gave her peace of mind that even if she wanted to she couldn't.
Shark swallowed yet another toy and had to get surgery again, just like he did for the squid he swallowed his pig toy whole. That put extra stress on Billie which was a little scary but she got through it.
She's almost done with her new album which has made her feel way better since that's what started her depression wave in the first place. She also dyed her roots back to black which looks really good on her
"OH MY GOD MARI!" She ran into the room
"What?!" I panicked
"What was I made for just got nominated for a fucking Oscar!" She jumped
"Holy shit! Oh my god!" I yelled hugging her
"Oh my god!" She giggled kissing me "what am u gunna ware?!"
"Girl!" I laugh
"What are you gunna ware?"
"Me?"
"Yeah, your coming right?"
"I Can do that?"
"Yes! Your coming with me" she kissed me again
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Billie looked so good, I wore a simple black dress with a matching pin to billies.
I was lowkey freaking out cuz I saw ARIANA FUCKING GRANDE helloooo?!!
"And the Oscar goes to..Billie eilish and fineas O'Connell!"
"Oh my god!" I jump
"Holy shit!" Billie hugged fin. "Oh my god!" She smiled hugging me
"I'm so proud of you" I smile then hug fin
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"What the fuck are we doing here it's five in the fucking morning" Billie laughed as we sat at a diner.
"I don't fucking know but I wanna go home, I'm tired" I sigh laying my head on the table
"Me too" Claudia yawns
Then you remembered something
"Billie?" I whisper
