Through the Glimpses of Him

Im here

"No need to be"
Never was here because anyone of us need to be

Youre stuck with me right?
That's the choice I made years ago
I'm stuck with you
Even if you "were a wrong choice" that's what u asked me once. What if you were a wrong choice?
Then I'll gladly make this wrong choice again and again and again and again and again and again and again even when I have nothing in me left and my entire mind and body screams to let go
I won't because I love you
My heart yearns for you

So I'll wait
I don't mind how you are right now
I don't
I'm not gonna push you away just because of my thoughts inside me
I won't
I'm sorry if at that moment I did
I'm never gonna let myself push you away. I'm gonna work on that. I'm gonna come back again and again on the inside. I'm not giving up on you and never will.

That's not even a question

You know
I realised something
I became hollow cause I didn't feel I was listened to. I forgot that till few minutes ago. I don't know how and why I did this to you

I'm gonna be back better when may is gone. I'll be better for you n for me

We are just letting each other be, so that we can focus on what we want to focus on. I think that approach would be the best for now. We're just letting each other be, not leaving each other be.

I accept the way you are, your feelings and existence in my life and the impact it has on me. I do. Because if I didn't then I would be complaining about why we have to go through this and I didn't do anything wrong and blame it on you
I don't blame it on you, I never did unless I felt pushed too far.
And
I pushed you too far.

I'm not going to ever not choose you as the person I want to go through pain with, the person who can hurt me, the person who I want to be with, the person who I have genuine feelings for, the person whose company i focus on and what he does

I lost sight to what's important and that's our feelings, your feelings
I need to be better so

あなたをより良く愛することができるように
(Anata o yori yoku aisuru koto ga dekiru yō ni)

私はいつもあなたを愛し、あなたに恋をします。私は常にあなたのためにもっと良くなるように努めます。そして、それが私が焦点を当てていることです。だから、どうか、どうか、私たちが今のままでいられるようにしてください。そうすれば、私たち二人がより良くなって、あなたが再び私を感じられるようになったときに、可能な限り最善の方法でお互いのためにそこにいられるでしょう。なぜなら、あなたはまた私を感じるでしょう、あなたは私をあなたの側に置くでしょう。あなたが私を感じられなくても、私はあなたのそばにいます。いつもあなたの傍にいます。 したがって、現時点で私たちにとって重要なことに集中しましょう。そうしましょう...私の宇宙人?
(Watashi wa itsumo anata o aishi, anata ni koi o shimasu. Watashi wa tsuneni anata no tame ni motto yoku naru yō ni tsutomemasu. Soshite, sore ga watashi ga shōten o atete iru kotodesu. Dakara, dō ka, dō ka, watashitachi ga ima no mama de i rareru yō ni shite kudasai. Sō sureba, watashitachi futari ga yori yoku natte, anata ga futatabi watashi o kanji rareru yō ni natta toki ni, kanōnakagiri saizen no hōhō de otagai no tame ni soko ni i rarerudeshou. Nazenara, anata wa mata watashi o kanjirudeshou, anata wa watashi o anata no soba ni okudeshou. Anata ga watashi o kanji rarenakute mo, watashi wa anata no soba ni imasu. Itsumo anata no hata ni imasu. Shitagatte, genjiten de watashitachi ni totte jūyōna koto ni shūchū shimashou. Sō shimashou... Watashi no uchūbito?)

I'm here, even as a ghost