The cry of the soul

My personal robot

I tried to avoid making eye contact but Nick would not stop teasing me.

'Okay let's get back to business ', he said and chuckled softly.

Just when I let my guard down he pulled my chair closer to him under the table .At this point my knee was all over his business. But he continued going over his part of the presentation .Good Lord !! Eventually my attention was back to the presentation,well that was only until Jaden stormed into the study room. I thought I was past the infatuation phase but all it took to prove me wrong was one stare piercing right through my soul .

A feeling I've never felt before,so warm,so beatiful but you know what they say about beautiful things,like roses they are conspicuous but if you are not cautious they might or are most probably going to prick you.But I was certain of one thing ,his spell over me was just stalwart it was going to take more than him ignoring me to get over our little episode in the storeroom.It was hard to focus on anything else when he was around .But this time his eyes were different,I wondered where that cold look he gave me at school had disappeared ,he looked sad more like distressed ,his eyes swollen like he had been wailing them out.

Jaden was becoming a million pieces puzzle, every time our eyes met he had been showing me so many personalities it was getting hard to fathom which one was the real him .He had so many faces but this one made me feel for him I never thought he had a vulnerable side to him .Nick was so into the presentation he did not even see Jaden at the door while my pride did not allow me to ask him what was wrong because of how he treated me earlier even though my very soul was grieving seeing him so miserable. When his gaze left my eyes I realised that he saw how close Nick and I were under the table, and with that returned the cold and empty stare ,he turned his back on me and walked away .

I suggested to Nick that we take a bathroom break while I followed Jaden up to his room. When I got there he was standing by the enormous window in his room,you know how they say a man's room is a man's mind,yeah. Black curtains,black rug ,black sheets, black vases and even the closet.That was not even it, all the four walls around him were adorned with nude paitings,my mouth was agape ,beauty,vibrant and simulating but then I did not take him to be an art person.

What more was there to this guy?

As I walked in the room my eyes fell upon the François Auguste René Rodin "The .6 " Kiss .The widely acknowledged masterpiece honoring the beauty of the human body and the divine nature of love.

'What are you doing here witch ?'

I wanted to leave ,I was sure he was going to pick a fight ,I was sure he was going to act all arrogant and try to rattle me .So I turned to walk away but he held my hand ,there was something about his touch ,new but so tender I could stay there forever and be just fine, I don't know about the mystery behind lovers understanding what is in each other's eyes but Jaden's touch talked to me and he was not the type of lover I needed at the moment but the games destiny plays you never have a shot at winning unless you are the 'terminator' or 'wonder woman' type. His touch paralyzed my whole being in a way I could not comprehend . He hugged me from behind ,he hugged me so tight I could count his breaths ,

'D-Don't leave me, stay here ,with me', he whispered.

He was cold and trembling in a room with an electric heater,my heart ached for him, after all what could a guy so handsome ,stinky rich as he was ,what could be hurting him so much that he had to wear so many masks ?My heart twinged for him ,I could feel his pain because pain is a feeling I knew from a tender age ,that feeling where you want to wail and scream but you don't even try because you have grown accustomed to the pain .

Because you have tried it before and the pain did not go away instead You woke up with swollen eyes.You feel like there's no purpose to your existence,if possible you would bring down the Lord himself and ask what all the agony is for. It is so painful you feel your chest ache ,you feel as though your heart will shoot right out from your body.Considering his condition at the moment it was not the right time to go all Bruce Lee on him for what he did ealier on that day.I turned to embrace him.