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“Kung magkakaroon ka ng pagkakataon na baguhin ang lahat‚ is there something you want to change?” My best friend‚ Jones‚ asked me out of nowhere.

I automatically shook my head as I heard his question. “No‚ I won’t.”

“Why? Don’t you want to be with her?”

“I would rather be in pain than to cage her to the love she doesn’t deserve‚ Jones.” I whispered as I sip on my vodka. I am not sure if he heard it but I didn’t give a fvck anymore.

Fvxk. Why did he even brought that topic? What the h3ll is he thinking?

“Why‚ bro? Don’t you want to be with her anymore? Ayaw mo na ba sa kaniya?”

Nagbaba ako ng tingin. I took another sip on my drink as my eyes started to get blurry. Ikinurap-kurap ko ito. I even gritted my teeth in annoyance. Sh!t. Don’t cry‚ Ethan. Naka moved on ka na. Don‘t let the past affect you. For fvck sake‚ it’s just an innocent question.

Innocent? Pft. I’m sure as hell that Jones were just fishing some fvcking information.

“Honestly? I wanna be selfish with her. Akin siya eh. Dapat akin siya. No one has the right to own her but me. Ako ‘yong nauna‚ dapat ako parin hanggang sa huli. Nakakatang’ina lang kasi.” I looked up and my piercing blue eyes met his green ones. “Saakin siya‚ Jones. Walang pu-puwedeng mag may-ari sa kaniya kung hindi ako‚ hindi maging ikaw.”

Nagbaba siya ng tingin at tsaka pinaglaruan ang basong hawak.

“Akin siya‚ Jones‚ eh.” I chuckled humorlessly. “Pero bakit ko naman gagawin iyon? Why would I going to turn back the time if ever I will have the chance if the consequences of that is to hurt her? No‚” I shook my head. “hindi ko gagawin ‘yon.  Hindi ko gustong makita siyang umiyak para lang sa sarili kong kapakanan‚ Jones.”

“I’m sorry... Ethan.”

I smiled at him. “Don’t be. It’s not your fault.” I breathe softly. “it’s not your fault that you love her. I should be thanking you‚ actually. For taking care of her and for making her happy.”

“But she was yours. You love her first.”

I stood up. “you know what bud‚” I looked at my wristwatch‚ pretending to be busy but honestly‚ I’m secretly shedding tears. “I need to go.”

“Bud‚ I’m sorry.” Tumayo siya at hinawakan ako sa braso nang akmang hahakbang na ako palayo‚ para ilayo ang puso kong nabasag at patuloy paring nababasag.

“I’m sorry if I agreed to their plans. I’m sorry dahil pumayag ako sa sabi ng doktor na magpanggap na boyfriend niya dahil ako ang naaalala niya. I’m sorry bud if I did it for myself. I’m sorry dahil pinairal ko ang pagiging makasarili ko.” binitawan niya ang braso ko at tsaka frustrated na napasabunot sa sariling buhok.

“Pasensiya bud. Mahal ko siya eh‚ mahal na mahal. Pasensiya na kung naging makasarili ako.”

“Stop saying sorry‚ Jones. Just make her happy. That’s all I want. Hindi mo kasalanang ikaw ang naalala niya noong nagising siya mula sa comatose. Hindi mo kasalanang nahulog siya sa’yo at hindi mo kasalanang kahit noong naalala na niya ako ay ikaw na ang mahal niya.”

Yes! It is not his fvcking fault pero bakit ang sakit? Bakit ‘yong kagustuhan kong isumbat iyon lahat sa kaniya ay hindi ko kaya?

Best friend ko siya eh. Tinuturing na parang kapatid.

Pero bakit siya? Bakit hindi nalang iba?

Napatingala ako at bumuga ng marahas na hininga nang maramdaman ko ang pamumuo ng luha saaking mata. Nilapag ko ang basong hawak at tsaka napatingin sa kaniya.

“ I need to go.” Paalam ko.

Tumango siya. “I’m really sorry‚ Bud. I’m really sorry. Sana pupunta ka parin sa kasal namin.”

“Of course‚”I smiled at him. “Bakit ko naman kakalimutan ang isa sa pinaka importanteng araw ng best friend ko?” I chuckled. Tumawa na rin siya at tsaka napailing iling pa.

Tsk. Lunatic.

Humakbang na ako paalis pero nakakailang hakbang pa lang ako ay lumingon ako sa kaniya uli.

“Take care of the woman I love‚ Bud. Please huwag mo siyang sasaktan. Kahit iyon lang. Mahal na mahal ko siya. Pambawi mo nalang saakin ang pasayahin siya.”

Pagkasabi ko niyon at dali-dali akong umalis palayo at sa bawat paghakbang ko‚ siya ding pagtulo ng mga luha sa mga mata ko.

Huminto ako nang nasa labas na ako at doon hinayaan ang sarili na umiyak.

“I’ll be okay.” I convinced myself. “Fvxk‚ I’ll be okay.”

I clenched my jaw. I tried my best to stop my tears from falling but it didn’t happened. It keeps on falling until I can’t breathe properly.

“I love you baby. Fvxk. Please be happy. Akin ka eh‚ dapat akin ka. Masaklap nga lang dahil hindi ako ang iyong naaalala.”

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- Grammatical incorrect and typographical errors ahead.
- story was written around 2020 and was updated/reposted today, April 16, 2024.

Haven‘t went revision for observation purposes.