Trust The Process

Chapter 27~Overthinking

Tamia's POV~ A week before

I walk in Donovan's game room and sit down on the couch. We haven't been as close as we used to be and he won't tell me why he acting like this. I never acted like this, especially for a nigga that's just not in my blood.

We talk from time to time but like how we was in the beginning. I ask him why he acting like this but he always says it's nothing when it's something, I just want him to talk to me.

"Donny.." I said putting my phone and look at him

He ignores me and say is name again.

"Don.. Donovan..DONOVAN!"

"Hm?" He said still looking at the game

"Can we talk? Or go shopping? Can we do something?"

"We can do whatever you wanna do- pass the ball pussy ass nigga!" He said shaking his head

I sigh and shake my head in walk out slamming the door and going in his room and putting my clothes on. After putting my hoodie on, he walks in.

"Where you going?" He said walking up to me

"I'm going back to my place.."

"Why? What's wrong wit chu?"

"Nah whats wrong with you? We haven't been talking like we use to..the only time we really ever talked is when you tell me about what happened at the trap when I don't give a fuck about that shit" I said looking at him

"If you didn't give a fuck then why you say wanted to hear bout it?" He said crossing his arms

"Because I wanted to hear your voice, when I'm at home the only people I talk to is the girls and my mom, I wanna talk to YOU BE WITH YOU!"

"Why you getting loud?!"

"Because I'm frustrated! You don't talk no more all you do is be on your game or on yo phone, smiling and shit! I wanna smile too! Like just now in the game room I was calling your name and you ignored me!"

"I was on the game with the guys" he said sitting on the bed

"Man- Donovan you finna piss me off, ION GIVE A FUCK ABOUT THEM NIGGA YOU PLAYING WIT"

"STOP ALL THAY YELLING YO! FUCK YO PROBLEM?"

"Donovan I don't want to fight but you gotta fix whatever is making you act like this, because it's getting annoying now ion do shit like fa niggas all this arguing, I don't do shit like this" I say getting my bag

"Look ima let chu have yo space, just let me know when you're ready to talk..ight?" He said walking up to me

"Ok whatever" I said walking out but he grab me back and I started tearing up

"Tamia..why you crying?" He said hugging me

"I just don't wanna break up with you..I love you"

"We not gon ever break up, and I love you too just take all the time you need..ok?" He said lifting my head up

"Ok.."

He grabs my neck and kisses me and I leave.

Donovan's POV~ Present time

I was with Samir and Rocco smoking a blunt and chatting it up and telling them how I'm feeling right now.

"So you gon break up with her?" Rocco said taking a hit

"Hell naw..but I just can't shake this feeling, every time I feel like this I always end up hurting the girl and I don't wanna do that to Tamia, I love her to much to do that" I said sitting up

"Mmm so you gon talk to her? Like actually tell her wassup?" Samir said looking at me

"Yeah ion got no choice but to, I just feel like she gon think it's her fault when it ain't" I said taking the blunt

"Well you got chance to talk to her tonight, Nikki bring her and Solé to the house" Rocco said getting up

"I'm not worried, me and Solé got closure last night" He smiled

"Crazy mothafucka" Rocco said laughing and I shook my head

Nobody's POV~

Hours go by and the girls made it. It was bit awkward for everybody since everything as happened in the past month. Solé and Samir were talking a little and laughing together how they used to and Nikki and Rocco were still together of course.

Tamia was not going to talk to Donovan, after she seen that picture of him and some other girl, her guard was up. After a long time of begging from Donovan, they finally talked.

Tamia POV~

"You wanted to talk?" I said sitting down in the chair and looking up at him

"I did.. but before I do why you acting all standoffish?"

I sigh and take me phone in showed him the picture.

"Did you cheat on me? Is that why you been acting the way you been acting?"

"Tamia" He put the phone down and sighed

"I'm not talking to no other girl so chill with that, this not even me in this picture"

"But- but nun I'm cheating not on you I promise, I only want you" he said sitting next to me and I start tearing up

"Why you crying..?" He said grabbing my hand

"Cuz..I'm just disappointed in myself..I never cried over a boy before because no but I really like you and I love you..so..you acting all weird in distant..it got me overthinking" I said wiping my face

He chuckles "ma..I'm sorry for making you over think and some mo shit but I promise you..the stuff I'm going through it's not yo fault, I just gotta work some shit out, ok?"

"Ok..just next time please talk to me" I said looking at him

"I will I promise..na can you come back?"

"Come back where?"

"My house girl, I miss you" he said smiling

"Mmm I'll think about it.." I said laying on his shoulder

"Alright just let me know.."

Hours later, I was at his house and we were talking the whole night about how his feeling and where this is gonna take us. However we're good now so I don't have nun to worry about.