Chef's Kiss

25.I am Sorry

                                                                                            Amrita

"She is back to normal she will now sleep due to the medicine . So no need to worry", I said while standing up from the bed. I went to Maa and held her hand ," Maa don't worry everything is fine you should go and attend the guests there are many people waiting."

"But leaving my child like this..", She replied hesistanely, I gave a little squeeze on her hand and assured that everything is fine and that I am here for Riya . After assuring her repeatedly she finally left with Dad soon I sent Payal and Babi too. Now only Vijay was left who was busy caressing his little girl's hair.

Eventhough I was so very angry with him but now was not the right moment to vent it. He was on the bed beside Riya with back towards me, I tried to reach him with my hand but stopped midway , a little hesitation stopped me from doing it and I thought of calling him by his name. But that didn't seemed very inhuman right now.

After much thought I finally gave in and placed my hand on Vijay's shoulder. "Everything is fine Vijay Riya is fine she was just a little excited . I have been treating her for a long time and I understand her body condition . Even if you don't trust me so much as a person but as a doctor you can I do my job well", I said in an attempt to make him relax but I can't tell if I was Successful cause he is sitting  still like stone.

Realising I failed to do what I expected,I was about to withdrew my hand but he caught it , and for a moment I stopped breathing. This sudden reactions of his always  catch me by surprise. He didn't say a word and got up from the bed stood in front of me and he managed to do all of this without letting my hand go. 

He made me sit on the bedside , all his actions made me devoid of any reaction , I was just following his instruction and sat quietly while he searched for something from my emergency kit. He came back with a small tube of oinment used for cuts. He knelt down took my hand that got scratched by the bangles earlier , I myself completely forgot about this.

" Thank you and sorry", he said while attending my wound , I got a little confused cause his thank you was obvious but sorry I couldn't understand that part. " Thank you I got it but why sorry?", I asked him. He stopped at my question looked at me and continued with his work again.

" Sorry...... for behaving like a jerk earlier", He finally said. He continued," Earlier today I was not in my right mind and behaved like that with you but... I didn't mean to hurt you or make you feel sad. It's ... It's just how I am , I like to push away people from my problems . I don't like involving them in the mess which I created completely myself. I am really really sorry Amr..No..my Wife", his voice was much more calm now as if he was speaking from the bottom of his heart. 

This was so very unexpected from him giving his personality I never in my life imagined him saying sorry for his behaviour . He put a band aid on my cut and finally made an eye contact with me. His eyes... they had some power cause they have managed to calm down my racing heart and bring it back to its original pace.

We both didn't speak and it felt as if  the time has stopped right at that moment , suddenly Vijay's hands travel from mine to my shoulder and then settled on my neck right below my ears. He gently tucked some loose strands  behind my ear with his thumb he did all this while maintaining the eye contact.

Vijay started covering up the distance between us and moved slowly towards me by now I forgot to breathe, my mind knew what was coming but my body did nothing to stop it rather it was submitting itself.

He was a few centimetres away from my face , I closed my eyes in nervousness and could feel him breathing. He was too close too me , too dangerously close my hands grabbed the bed sheets so hard as if my life depended on it.

" Can I?", he whispered in his slow deep voice. I opened  my eyes at his question. Is this man fucking serious after practically lightning my body on fire he is asking for permission seriously dude.

I knew I had to say no , my mind knew it too but when I wanted to say it not a single word came out of my mouth rather I nodded in a yes fucking yes. And before I could correct my action his lips were on mine.

I got lost , he was so gentle and slow as if giving me  time to pull away and rethink my desicion but it was too late for me cause my lips were automatically cooperating with his and he understood that cause now he was kissing me deeper with much more passion. His left hand travelled across my back before finally settling on waist . I was on the verge of losing my mind when there was a knock on the door.

"Vijay.. Vijay ", a male voice called his name. I put a hand on his shoulder in an attempt to make him aware of the visitor. He stopped and looked at me in confusion making it clear he didn't hear the knock and his name being called. I pointed towards the door with my eyes and once again I hear his name being called but this time Vijay also heard it .

"Who ?", he asked without moving an inch from his position. "It's me Rick . Open the door."

He sighed and said something under his breath,then looked at me with an apologetic face. "It's fine open the door he is waiting for a long time ", I somehow managed to say. He nodded , placed a kiss on my forehead and was about to stand up when I grabbed his hand.

"You... You.. should ", he stared at me while I tried to put the words together without being embarassed . I continued,"should.. I mean", and pointed towards his lips which was now stained by my lipstick. He rubbed his thumb on his lips and laughed a little seeing the stain on it. He stood up grabbed few tissue papers and cleaned his lips on his way to open the door. While I sat there trying to process the fact that we kissed.