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012. 𝑴𝒚 𝑺𝒖𝒏𝒏𝒚 𝑫𝒂𝒚

𝑴𝒚 𝑺𝒖𝒏𝒏𝒚 𝑫𝒂𝒚
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claire is sitting on her bed, thinking about matt. why is she thinking about matt? she has no clue. that's a lie actually. she knows exactly why she's thinking about him. like he let her keep his sweater and his photo dump definitely made her a little weak in the knees. 

she hates how matt makes her feel with every ounce of her being. she hates the way he makes her have butterflies. she hates how he knows her like the back of his hand. she hates that he knows the affect he has on her. she hates that she's thinking of him instead of her actual boyfriend. she hates how he's always on her mind. she hates how he's all it takes to break a promise. she hates him. she hates matt so much. 

to get him out of her mind, she settles on hating him. if that's what it takes then she might as well be praying on his downfall. 

she sighs at the gut wrenching feeling of hating matt. how could anyone hate him? he's so sweet and kind and ador- stop. she thinks to herself. i hate matt. she repeats in her head to get set in her mind. she hates the idea of hating him more than she 'hates' him.

she thinks it's only right to change his contact name and maybe block him while she's at it. maybe she should block all the triplets. i mean, she only sees matt when she looks at the other two triplets. if she cuts them out completely, then she cuts out any thought of matt. that's what she wants- no it's what she needs.

My Clairo 💗 changed matty b raps 💗🔥 name to matt

My Clairo 💗 blocked matt

she clamps her eyes shut because this physically pains her. never in a million years would she have thought that she would one, cut matt out, and two, block matt. it feels... wrong. it's so out of the ordinary. she basically used to live at the triplets house, but now she feels like if she goes there, she'll feel out of place. like an orange cat in a group of black cats. 

she needs to stop. she keeps thinking about matt and it's driving her insane. as she's hating herself for every thought she thinks about matt, she remembers that she's going to the studio with the band in about 45 minutes. she has absolutely zero idea of what she's going to wear so she gets up and walks over to her closet. she's about to start looking, until she realizes how quiet it is in her room. music. that's what she needs. she might as well take a screenshot of the first four songs she listens to just to post them on insta.

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