[𝑴𝒚 𝒗𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒔𝒑𝒂𝒄𝒆]

Vent 6!!

Sex and gender identity confusion

See I identify as genderfluid, but now I'm questioning it. I don't like she/her pronouns, neither he/him, and they/them doesn't weird me out.

I may be non-binary, but I also don't know. I dress super masc and then super femme, then in between. I feel either super masc one day and femme as shit the other, sometimes I go neutral.

At times I fucking hate my tits, the other I love them. I'm confused, what am I?

Calling myself non-binary makes me feel like- idrk but it's something that makes me feel.. weird?

I don't want my mom to call me her daughter, but her child.

But I'm okay with being called a big sister.

I'm confused.

Can I be genderfluid still? I'm unsure in myself.

On days on which I use she/her pronouns, I sometimes dress really really fucking masc. Vice versa with he/him. I've never told anyone to use pronouns or "Hey! Call me ____ please!" Because most wouldn't, and I only have barely a few that actually WOULD, so I hardly bother and suck it up.

Today I'm using they/them, maybe that's why I'm having a crisis over being NB. But I was dressing femme. Now I've changed into something more neutral/masc out if fear that I'm not what I say I am.

I'm desperately confused. Why do I not have the urge to dress neutral??

Am I delusional?? Was I just wrong in myself?? Because this morning till about 20 minutes ago (20:00PM) I really liked my tits, going as far as wearing stuff that was deep cut. I wanna fucking saw them off now.

I can't express how bad I want a binder
:(( but they're sooo expensive and my family def won't get me one, thinking its a phase n stuff.

Sometimes I like to look down and see my tits, but now I want to run a hand down my chest and feel nothing. I'm confused. I'm really confused. Am I not genderfluid but something else??

-Mei
20/04/24
20:22PM

For context, what I wore at first:

What I wore now :

_K1CK_4RS3_
rain3shad0ws
Help