My B- Billie Eilish

Chapter 29

continued...

"I'm ready to tell you everything Jen" She says looking right into my eyes

"I'm all ears" I reply giving her a reassuring warm smile. Deep down I fear she might say something hurtful to me especially because im a sensitive hoe

"Basically..." she pauses

"Take you time" I say once again

"It's not even that deep" she begins speaking but her voice trembles as tears fill her eyes "Basically, I have bpd" she finally manages to rush it out

She drops her head down as more tears fill her eyes. "Baby it's okay" I pull her head towards my chest giving her a hug as I play with her hair, just how she always likes it

"I just didn't want to tell you incase you see me differently or some shit" she says sniffing and wiping her teary red eyes

"Billie you have a dick if that doesn't make me see you differently then nothing else can" I smile which makes her giggle slightly

"Do you know what bpd is?" she asks me, her mood changing back to how it was a few minutes ago, she begins fiddling with her rings, just like she does when she's anxious

"I know it's something to do with not being in control of your emotions and feeling every emotion ten times harder, but for you I'm willing to learn more about it" I reassure her, grabbing her hands in mine as i rub my thumbs against the top of her hands

"Fuck, I love you so much Jen, my girl right here" She gives me half a smile as she picks up my hands in hers, kissing them both multiple times softly

"I love you too Billie, but you telling me you have bpd doesn't really give me an explanation on this whole situation" I say feeling all the sad emotions slowly making their way back into me

"Oh yes, of course, I'm sorry" she chuckles

I'm gonna slap that chuckle out of her if she doesn't give me an explanation in the next 5 seconds

"Me and Charlotte have been friends since I was like 4 years old, I never mentioned her to you because we only recently got back in contact, I didn't feel that it's necessary that I have to tell you" She explains

I feel stupid now

"What was up with the eggplant emojis then, the conversation seemed a bit too flirty to me Billie" I say, I'm trying to not get emotional again but I'm just a girl

"We just talk like that, if it makes you feel better she's straight and has a husband" as she says that I finally feel relaxed, but also kind of dumb that I assumed that Billie is cheating on me

"Not to mention the 3 month pregnancy, it's a boy by the way" she adds giggling

"You idiot, this whole time I thought you're cheating on me" I slap her shoulder playfully as she laughs like an idiot

"Why didn't you just tell me that yesterday?" I add, feeling far more relaxed and calm as the weights finally drop off my shoulders

"Well you threw my phone at my face and screamed, I panicked and just froze" She shrugs "My girlfriend is abusive" she adds

"I'll show you abusive in a second" I say as I tackle her, making her fall back as we both laugh our asses off

"I'm sorry for going off at you like that" I whisper as I laugh on top of her, inches away from her face, our eyes locked on each other

We both just fell in love even more now, I can feel it

"I'll think about it, if you give me head every day for the next week then it's a 'you're certainly forgiven now' you decide mama" she says as she bites her bottom lip, giving me those dead eyes of hers that I missed more than anything

"Stop being an idiot, I'm being serious, I'm really sorry for screaming at you like that, I guess you could say I panicked aswell" I say with a straight face, unlike this fool in front of me who can only be serious for 5 minutes max

She sighs playfully "Fine I guess I have no other option other than to forgive you since I'm in love with you" She pecks my lips twice

"Are you now?" I raise an eyebrow smirking

She rolls her eyes smiling, girl got caught in 4k

"Does Gabriel know you have bpd?" I ask, I want to know everything about it already so I can understand her brain more

"Yeah he knows for a long time, I'm kind of surprised he didn't tell you already, him and his big fat mouth" she shakes her head

"Speaking of" I lift myself up from Billie's lap

"Noo come back here, I missed your body on mine those past 24 years" She pouts opening her arms for me to crawl back into

"I think you mean 24 hours" I give her a side eye as I fix my tangled hair in the mirror

"To me it felt longer than 24 years" she groans manspreading, unable to take her eyes off me ever since Gabriel left

"Is Gabriel actually talking to that guy downstairs?" I giggle as I scroll through my contacts to find his number, I dial his number and as I'm about to give up he answers

"where the fuck are you"

"why?"

"why didnt you tell me"

"so, you could have texted me at least"

"alright whateverrrrr have a good night gay boy"

"Where is he?" Billie asks from the couch

"Gay boy decided to get a taxi home, he spoke to some guy in the parking lot and seen a free taxi was available so he fucked off home" I roll my eyes shaking my head as I plop myself next to Billie "He's going to get in serious trouble one day" I say to myself as I sigh

I feel like an overprotective mother

"So we're all alone now?" she smirks changing the subject as she massages my thigh with her hand, the cold rings on her fingers giving me goosebumps once they touch my bare skin

"Yeah we are" I whisper, shutting my legs tightly to create some kind of friction, I missed her touch more than I thought, there's already an ocean forming between my legs

"How about we hang out in your bedroom now? how does that sound?" she moves her hand up higher, now being nearly exactly where I want her to be

stupid fucking shorts in the way

"I think that sounds amazing, we should go now" We both jump up from the couch at the same time and rush towards my room, Billie nearly slipping with her every move in those stupid socks

I missed Billie like hell she's right it felt like 24 years, but right now I miss her dick the most

smut time??🤭