Your Love Buried Deep Inside My Disastrous Heart (Poetry)

Academically Achieving In Knowing Less

I wish to know less
Is this a curse?
I'm frozen as a malfunctioning, endless book
I can't show you how I look
You know I tried, and I'm trying
The more I learn, the more I'm breaking
I bought a parking lot for countless cars
But I cannot buy a single candy
Known as one of the brightest school stars
Whose knowledge hasn't reached too far?

I'm an academic achiever
They place my name on golden papers
And when I reached my melting point
I swear, it felt good until it broke my bones
I felt tongue-tied
I can't even dare to speak
When I tried
Expectations never meet me

They said it was such a gift
Having to be born like this
Academically achieving in knowing less
But I'm not content; I want to be stressed
Thickheaded, they said, it was all in my head
Information I've read and knowledge I can't forget
In school, in all places
I feel pressure; I see faces of the professor of truth